YO! Lookit! A Chapter! A whole fucking YEAR later. Gosh, you people should just kill me now and put us all out of our miseries. Or something. Perhaps you'd have to torture me into telling you what happens at the end of these stories first, but THEN you should kill me.

Okay, seriously, any freak-o stalkers out there, incase you're insane, this is NOT me giving you permission to kill me. >_>

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On with the show!


Prologue / Chapter One / Chapter Two / Chapter Three / Chapter Four / Chapter Five / Chapter Six / Chapter Seven /


( Story summary/warnings/general author notes etc )


( Burn to Shine Chapter Eight - Put Me Together Again )

Oh and, MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! Yay, Jesus! Hope people are having good holidays! Peace, dudes!

Yo all.

Life continues for me, can't really access the net and stuff much coz then I have to go on elaborate history-deleting missions afterward, but the olds are away for the weekend so I've had some time to do a few things today.

( Some blather about life )

What I really wanted to make this post about:

RE the whole Adult content thing, one week from today I am switching this journal to explicit-adult content status. I'm waiting a week so that hopefully, the people who don't know about the changes (and here) will not panic and will have some idea what's going on.

To clarify my personal perspective about this, I have never been shy about admitting that this site has explicit sexual content on it and I don't see any reason to try and pretend that it doesn't. I genuinely don't want to have anyone exposed to stuff that they don't want to see or think about if they don't want to have that in their heads. (although it would be pretty lame of someone to miss _all_ the warnings I have lying around.)

HOWEVER! I started getting involved in explicit written porn from the age of 14, and it hasn't done me any damage (...well, apart from me being a total perv.) and I actually think that written pron is a really healthy and safe way for teenagers to get to learn about sex in a way that can't cause them any harm. Also, in my country the age of consent is 16, and I don't really have a problem with that age barrier, so if people can do it, they should be able to read about it.

As such, if you're under 18 and still want to read my fics -knowing that they contain explicit sexual content- go ahead! As said in those links, if you're logged out of LJ all you have to deal with is a warning page and then lying about your age. I'm not going to tell you to do that, because it could get me in trouble with the sex-police, it's just a matter of your own choice.

Also, if people don't want to lie to LJ (knowing how crazy they are about these things I wouldn't be all that surprised if they start tracking people's IPs and stuff in the future.) My fics are also on skyehawke (the link's in my profile if you need it), there's also an age-warning there, but I think they're less psychotic about that sort of thing over there.

If your computer has one of those porn guards or whatever that will react to this change, I am genuinely sorry if this means you won't be able to access my fic, but you'll have to take that up with your parents or whoever put the program on your computer. If it's a real problem for a number of people, please email me and I'll think about putting my stuff on another site which just has the in-text warnings. I really don't want to be putting people out by this step, but LJ is hosting me, and I think this is a fair rule to have in place.


Anyway! I didn't mean to blather, I gtg, hopefully will be posting Chapter 8 soon. (although I'll have to do that before I change the porn settings or else I think my Dad's computer's pron guard won't let me access my journal anymore! ^_^;;

Love love!

Peeji

The last week has had some of the most insane consecutive days in the history of my universe. I haven't slept properly or for long enough since Wednesday. @_@ Anthropology exam went okay, hopefully will get a decent mark for that one. Right now I'm trying not to scream at my flatmates, trying to organise packing and organise things that need to be prepared pre-leaving and all that stuff. Meanwhile I've got one of my best friends leaving the country in like, 3 hours and I've been helping her prepare and pack for the last 36 hours, so we're both completely losing our minds and fuck, I just want to crawl into a ball and cry.

Meanwhile, it's just occurred to me that not only am I going to be stuck in Tauranga for 6 weeks, I'm going to be away from my computer, only able to use my Dad's dailup-connection computer which has a PORN GUARD program on it! I'm not going to be able to access ANYTHING!!!! I don't know if it'll even let me access my LJ, so I'm letting y'all know so you don't freak if I disappear for an unknown amount of time. Don't fear though, without my internet or (possibly, if I don't find one) a job, I will be getting a lot of writing done which I hope to be able to post as soon as I get back here in the first week or so of January.

I will miss everything muchly, pray for my sanity (although not too much, preferably) and if I don't manage to visit till I get back, I hope everyone has a great holiday and Christmas/New Year, etc. Love love love love!

~Peeji

EDIT - Nov 27: Just popping by to say that I've finished the draft for BtS_08! Only like, 10 months later! It's all written up by hand so it's going to take me a while to type up and edit, but um, YAY, right? I'm estimating that the finished product will be about 5,000 words long, and at this point I'm really hoping that upon second read-through I'm not going to say something stupid like, 'this really needs the next scene added on the end now, instead of the scene waiting till next chapter.' coz that would be really, really stupid. Okay. I better go before my Dad spontaneously appears behind me, but all is reasonably well, save for frustration and pending RSI due to me typing out too much of the aforementioned chapter today. *looks sheepish* Ta for now!

Yo! Wazzup?

Feelin freaky.

Next week is the final week of classes for 2007. Eeep! I have a test on Tuesday, a test on Thursday, and a HEAP of schoolwork to do in between because all my subjects are doing, 'massive revision of the whole semester' week. Joy.

( Blather re school and WRITING WRITING WRITING )

What else is going on? Well, I've just finished watching the first season of Stargate Atlantis. It's funny, I'd seen one random episode aaaaages ago, and abandoned it as a waste of time, but watching it from the start meant that I got a very different feel about it. I mean, the acting is often still terrible, and the scripts, sets and storylines can grate a little, especially things like, EVERYONE IN SPACE IS WHITE! And, ALL CULTURES ARE THE SAME! (relatively, unless they're making a point about some specific difference). But overall these things are just ignorable in the face of the total cuteness of the show. Yeah, you heard me, I think it's cute. Cute. CUTE. It makes me feel all fuzzy. Which is odd, but hey.

Oooh! Oooh! Hey! This is actually relevant! I'm going to see my parents from the 1st-8th of November, then back for exams till the 18th, then going BACK to see the olds on the 19th of Nov till December 28ish. (Really long story as how all that managed to happen!) So if I don't update more before all that happens, that's where I am and I maaay not be around much. (which is just sooo unusual these days, isn't it!? -_-;;) But who knows, I may be around more. I just won't have access to my own computer, is all. I will be spending Christmas with the parents AND one of my brothers, which is pretty sweet, (my two brothers don't really care about Christmas so I haven't had them around for it for four years) so yeah, I'm vuuuury excited. Yeeey!

Alright, I'm going to bugger off now, I need to start looking at homework.

Love love!

Hah! The universe does not _totally_ defeat me! Hear me roar!

I have discovered an amazing thing! If I don't make any elaborate plans and stay in for most of the weekend, I have heaps of time for BOTH slacking off AND getting things done! (Though it would have been nice if my flatmates had told me before 9pm that they had changed the dishes schedule around and now I have a Mammoth Pile of dishes to do before bed which is likely to take me about an hour. -_-) So! Not only have I read massive amounts of fiction, done some (not enough, was planning on using that dishes hour for more) homework, but I have ALSO done some WRITING!

I know! I know! It's completely INSANE! It's so insane, that I had to spend like, an hour just reading through (some of) the story-notes for like, five different stories just to remind myself of what's supposed to be happening next. (I say 'some of' because reading through all the notes for those stories would likely as take me about five hours. No time have I ever felt more vindicated in my obsessive notation than today though, when I was re-reading the last chapter of DMTs and as I read, I thought at least three times, 'oh shit, what was I doing with that plot thread again?' only to find all the information I needed in moments of looking in my notebook. HAH!) Then of course, I had the conundrum of knowing that I only had about 2 hours to work on writing, but I had one million and twenty five different things I wanted to work on. See brain freak-out!

Anyway, I ended up working on BtS (also known by my system as HPFF1. Who wants to guess what the others stand for? And who wants to lay a wager on the Mysterious Missing HPFF3 which I have yet to admit that I'm writing and what it's about? Hmmmm?) And got about 700 words done. Woot! Being as that takes the total word-count for chapter 8 up to 2,100, that's a good sign. (my minimum word count per chapter is 2,500-ish) However the chapter still needs at least one more scene in it so I have no idea how long that will take, probably another 1000-2000max words? Dunno.

Anyway, I'm blathering. Uni is good. I've got three weeks of class left and then it's all OVA, save for exams. ...And then I'm doing summer papers, but my first year still will officially be over, so it's all good. Expecting at this point to pass at least two of my current papers, (Anthropology and Chinese History) definitely fail one (Russian History - and that's only because I missed an essay when I was sick that was worth 40%, so I don't get guilts for it) and maaaaaaybe pass Japanese if I'm able to catch up on the vocab before the exam, but I've got a lot of time for that, so I'm not toooooo freaked out. ..... >_>;;

Jaa, hope all are well! Wish me luck with fitting in more writing time over the next few months and we might get to see some more chapters, ne?

Love love!

Page out.

To all the writers out there: Don’t you just hate it, when you’re halfway through writing a really cool, really powerful scene when suddenly you realise the scene does not match with your own canon?

-_-;; Yeah, I’m trying to work on Burn to Shine at the moment but I just realised the scene I’ve been writing is based on an aspect of the plot I’d thought of ages ago but ended up writing out of the final cut. I wouldn’t really care, except, a) now I have to think up a whole new plot device to keep this scene running, and b) the scene was turning out really goooood, damn it! *pouts* Oh well, that’s life. But still, me = sadface

I think I'm going to make this a writing night. Only writing allowed, though if anyone is around at 10pm, 1200+GMT, yell at me to get off the computer and study, coz no one is going to be more pissed off than me if I fail my exams simply for lack of self-discipline.

Anyway, right now it's 7:26pm and I'm at 457 words. Wish me luck!

Edit: 9:53pm, 1,268 words. Woot for me! Much snarkage was to be had. No one try to take on Draco in a verbal sparring match, okay? He will take you DOWN. (or, at least as much as my meagre ability will allow him to.) Well, my time's up now so I'm going to sit in front of the heater for a while and study study study. *does the happy I-got-writing-done dance and wanders off*

Okay no, not completely, but I do kinda suck. I just checked, and I haven't updated Burn to Shine since JANUARY. JANUARY!!! I'm surprised some of the readers haven't sent packs of rabid flying monkeys to me in the mail. (Though I would like to point out that the crazy-rabid-ness of the flying monkeys was a total fabrication, and they were actually quite nice but being forced to do the Wicked Witch's bidding and even gave Dorothy the Golden Cap when she got rid of witch. So there.)

I really am sorry about this. Does anyone remember me saying, oh like, almost _two years ago_ that I didn't want to become one of those writers who took around three years to publish one fanfic? Well.... Yeah.... I'm so screwed, aren't I?

On the positive side, I've finally got out of the Evil Flats of Doom and am now at my Nanna's place. I'm here until I can get a job so that I can afford a new flat where there aren't psycho people. (Have a job interview tomorrow morning, everyone pray for me! ...unless you worship Satan. In which case I'll pass if that's alright, but wish me well, okay?) Then I shall move, again. -_-;; Meanwhile currently I'm in the first week of two weeks of study-break, then I have two exams the following week then two weeks holiday with memei-senpai and simon-kun (san? I'm still soooo bleary about honorifics) which is going to be AWESOME! Then semester two starts which is going to have a double-sized workload. @_@ I am _hoping_, however, that despite more work- being in a regular schedule might help me to be in a good frame of mind for writing. (better than the last 6 months, anyway.)

Thus, for the next two weeks my two priorities are study and writing. I've started in on bts_08 and I am hoping that once I really get writing it will be as fast to write as chapter seven was. Wish me well, everyone.

P.S. *looks around* I think this means my non-hiatus is non-over. >_>; We'll see?

Just a quick fly-by entry because I am off on a plane in the morning (I feel like I've become such a jet-setter in the last few years! To think I'd never been on a proper plane in my life only two years ago! Now the idea of it just makes me feel jaded. :/)

I momentous thing has happened to me tonight, and I need to write it down for posterity. Tonight, after starting watching the series somewhere around ten years ago, I have finally watched the last episode of Sailor Moon.

...I can't even begin to describe my feelings right now.

To be honest I thought the ending was a bit lame and I wish they'd ended it at the end of season three. I liked the character development they did in this season, but the fact that _yet again_ Sailor Moon has to wait till EVERYONE IS DEAD before she actually does anything was a bit manufactured. All the character development in the season was pointing toward the scouts/senshi really starting to get used to their roles and accept that part of their lives, then suddenly Sailor Moon is kicking _less_ ass than she has in _every_other_battle_? Nuh. Would have worked if they'd put more work into the script and just had her say a few things like, "This fighting is endless, I refuse to keep having to hurt people," or, "Sometimes fighting is not the answer to a problem," or ANYTHING that would have explained her random extreme-pacifist opinion other than, 'Now I am naked for _no good reason_ and I will not try and stop you like every other bad-guy-boss in the series, I will fly towards you (naked) and commune with your inner love-love (naked) nature. (WHILE BEING NAKED FOR NO GOOD REASON!)'

And like, how many times did the inner-senshi DIE in that series???? Like, at least three times, right? (including the movies)

Anyway, it was good, I'm glad I've finally seen it, but, as usual, I could have done it so much better. Why don't these companies get the message and just hire me as the writer for like, every single anime already??? Sheesh!

Right well, to bed with me. I am in the North Island for a week now, (visitin the fam. YAYAYAY! Gonna see my cat. YAYAYAY!) So I'll be even _more_ non-hiatusy than I was before, (which, lets be honest, may seem to appear pretty similar to a hiatus, but it's not! I swear! I do I do!) but I'm hooooooping to get some writing done while I'm away. Got the next two scenes for BTS_08 all planned out so it may just happen. We'll see. Everyone be-well and I promise I will get back to my old levels of at least sporadic replies to things ^_^;; Page out!

I just want to say that although I have disappeared off the face of the earth temporarily, I am not on hiatus. I have re-learnt to define the statement, 'It never rains but it pours' and a lot of crap is happening all at once in my life at the moment.

Not that it's all bad, a lot of good has been happening too, just so much crap that I physically don't have enough hours in the day for all the things I should be doing, which is pretty freakin stressful right now.

Anyway, a very, very long story short: I am very busy, I am not replying to many things I should be and I am not really around much but I am definitely not on hiatus. Chapter 8 of BtS is in progress, a very, very slow progress but it's definitely on the burner. Life, I hope, will eventually calm down and I will hopefully get a bit of a better handle on things. Till then, sporadic is me. Hope everyone is well.

Page out.

I feel very fucked in the head at the moment. Living in a near-empty house, with nothing to do but read, study, write, read, study, watch TV, write, read etc. I really want a job. I'm not missing classes because I'm freaking out about exams, but it's so strange having no need to leave my house for days and days on end. o_o

Wrote a non-poem last night:

( Smile (cut for long-ness) )


( Some me rambling )