I'm in the middle of writing an essay and it's driving me INSANE. Because I watched Spn eps 16, 17, and 18 last night with a friend, (which are three of my favourite episodes for the season,) and I was hit really hard with a plot bunny and ALL I WANT TO DO IS WRITE. But I have to write this stupid essay instead.

*cries and flaps*

The essay is due tomorrow, too, so I can't even put it off. *sighs* But, but, Deeeeeeean! Saaaaaam! *clutches them*

Anyway, that's all. Except I know way more about Preimplantation Genetic Diagnosis than I ever thought I would need to. It's almost as bad as when I had to do an essay on goats. o_0

EDIT: *falls over* I just spent like, an hour re-doing my ENTIRE layout (on Dreamwidth). I found the other one too narrow. This one is a liiiittle bit buggy for me, but it's much prettier. Also updated all the links and formatting on my profile page. I think I'm ready for everyone to come over to DW now. *lays out welcome mat*

It's 2am. I've actually been doing homework for the last two hours (because I told myself I was allowed to stay up late but only if I used it for homework,) and I just wanted to share how much of a weirdo I have become.

It's been fun doing this film-script writing course this semester partly because the lecturer never talks like our dreams aren't a reality. He's always like, 'when you've finished your script and sent it off to the producers you'll want to do such and such.' And, 'once your script is being made...blah blah blah' Which, I dunno, I've found a slightly odd experience because getting a novel finished to the point where I could send it to publishers has always been SUCH a far away goal, I mean, I've barely made a dent in any of my original works, so it's not something I think about being realised very often.

However, at the moment I'm working on a pilot episode for what I've planned as being an anime series, but could also easily work as a live action series, or even about three movies, depending on how the plot and characters are developed. Anyway, long story short, all this talk of actually getting a script developed made me think about the who/where/when/what/hows of it, and suddenly, (while thinking about Spn, coz I do a lot) I decided that it would be perfect if my show was being developed right as S5 finished, and if I could snag Jensen AND Jared to be in my show. (It's perfect! They could be together! It's an ensemble cast so they don't have to work so hard! They're interesting characters! We could film in LA! Everything they waaaaaant.) And somehow, this idle thought has developed into this whole THING and now I'm basing the characters really strongly around how the boys would portray that sort of character (Jensen's character wears GLASSES, guys!) and now the characters are in LOVE. (well, they will be, ever.)

But... now my heart is REALLY SET ON IT! And it's about 99.999% likely to end in tragedy for my poor, silly heart.

But! But! I just wanted to share my silliness because how AWESOME would that be, eh guys? I could be all sneaky and get them to LEGITIMATELY MAKE OUT ON CAMERA. And they would all think it was just because of their characters. *snorts*

Anyway, other than sharing with everyone JUST HOW ELABORATE my flights of fancy can be, I just wanted to bounce for joy a little because my draft for the pilot is almost done and... seriously now, once this is ready I actually CAN send this pilot away, like, NOW, to potential producers. And that's sort of... insane and scary and exciting. I'm completely in love with this story and even if (due to my inexperience) I don't get taken on as a writer of the full series, I'd love to see this made, because I think it really rocks and has strong selling potential.

That is all, I am still overwhelmed by uni work. My calendar is a solid wall of blocked out work/study/otherstuff for the next two weeks. Sorry for long rambling post. Love love!

Does it make me a really, really bad person that I get really pissed when someone deletes their fic/journal?

And I mean, 'ARG! THAT IS SO FREAKING ANNOYING!' and then the really awful bit: 'WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!?/HOW DARE YOU!?'

I do realise that having a sense of entitlement over a story that belongs to someone else is completely irrational and kind of dickheaded, but that's just the reaction I get.

Now, I realise people often/usually have very good reasons for talking their fics offline. Abuse, C&Ds, publishing, RL pressure, but there are so many better ways of handling things than just vanishing. And I also feel that hello, this is the INTERNET, if you've already put something out there, it's out there, you can't stop the signal, dudes!

When someone like Maya took her fanfic offline, she gave months of notice and put everything into a PDF that people could download to their own machines. She knew that someone would probably host it, but the point was that she couldn't, due to getting original work published, and that the number of new readers would be greatly reduced. She didn't want to cut her old readers who had loved those stories for years, she just had to take them offline. Managed! With grace!

So, I dunno, when I see people just up and vanish, it really ticks me off, because for one thing, their fics are NOT lost, it is highly likely that even if the internet doesn't store them any more, someone will have it on their HD and it will eventually be hosted via some storyfinders page somewhere. So, I dunno, if you've got issues, I wish people would either follow Maya's example, or just, I dunno, freeze all comments everywhere on their journal and slap up a 'I'm leaving. Goodbye' post.

In the end, of course it's any writer's right to leave the internet or remove their fic, I just wish people would realise that, a) it's kind of futile, and b) it's really hurtful to the people who have become emotionally connected to those stories over the years.

Anyway, this wasn't pointed at anyone in particular, I was just reminded of it this morning as I trawled through the internet archive to try and grab all the fic of an author I really like who has gone bye-bye.

Now I have to stop procrastinating and face up to the, 'You know I love you despite your freaky sexuality, right?' text I got from my Dad this morning. Oh joy. :/

Okay so, I love gender-swap fic, very very much, but it's been annoying me today how in the Supernatural fandom people are so quick to be all, 'Oh, I'm a girl now, I'll never be able to hunt/fight/do anything and/or especially take down Sam.' Now, I know chicks don't have as much testosterone as guys, and as such it's harder for us to build up muscle and in general we're smaller and less strong than guys, but for fuck's sake, people, fighting is not ALL about size and muscle-strength.

I've been doing Kung Fu now for like, 8 weeks, and our instructor is TINY. He's smaller than me, and I can guarantee you that he can take down the biggest guy in our class in about two seconds flat. My style of Kung Fu is all about getting inside someone's space, and that's actually easier when you're small, in a lot of ways. Now, I could readily believe that Sam and Dean don't actually know any Kung Fu, but things they probably do know, like Jujitsu or Thai Kickboxing all have ways a small person can fight and beat a bigger person. It's not all about who has the most muscles, it's about speed, weight placement, angles and balance and knowing the right moves to use against the appropriate opponent.

So, I could understand the boys needing to change some of their guns, and I can understand a lot of time needing to be spent re-training to use the different weight, size and speed the changed person has, but if you're going to write a gender-swap, please don't assume that either of the guys would be incapable at hunting and/or taking down the other guy. Fighting has weight-divisions in contests to make it an even playing field, not because it's impossible for little people to take down big people.

Now, I'm sick in bed today, so if anyone wants to make me feel better by writing me a fic with girl!Dean taking down Sam who's all sure Dean won't have a chance in his cute little girl body, I'd totally be okay with that. *beams*

Edit: I'm waiting for my screen-writing lecturer to get back to me with the assignment he was supposed to give out, and in the mean time I've written, 1200~ words of the next part of Pack Your Bags. And come to a very firm chapter-end, so, as there is a whole lot of stuff that's supposed to come after that, it seems the story has turned into a three-part-er. Part2 clocks in at about 5,700~ and I expect 3 to be about 3-5k? The whole 'verse will probably be somewhere around 13k. I'm not really sure if I should post this part nowish or if I should wait till it's all done. :/ I'm inclined to wait, I think. Posting unfinished fics doesn't appeal to me as much as it once did... -_-;

Anyway, I'm off to edit DMT_07 now, since the Harry Potter fans may send glow-worms to kill me in the night if I ignore my WiPs to work on Supernatural fic any more than I already have. ^____^;;;;

I have a few things to say!

One:
A theory about the Mystery of Sam Winchester and Azazel’s Mysterious Epic Plan.

I was thinking about demons, and angels, and how they need hosts. (Have you got it yet?) And how everyone’s trying to bring on the apocalypse. And set Lucifer free. And I know Lilith is always trying to kill Sam, but it seems interesting that she never quite manages it. Anyway, I suddenly wondered this week if this Whole Thing is that Sam is being made into a perfect host for Lucifer. Because surely Lucifer is so big and badass that he couldn’t inhabit just anyone.

:/

What do you think? I’m not sure about it. I hope it’s not true, because I don’t like the idea of Sam after all this being no more important than being a shell, but it does seem to fit really well. Just an idea. (If someone wants to write it.... go ahead? Especially if Sam gets captured beforehand, and force-fed blood for a while, and goes a little crazy and Dean has to save him. Mmmm. Yes? Someone? EDIT: Or, even better, if Dean gets captured WITH Sam and gets left in a room/cell with Sam as Sam goes progressively more darkside. Mmmmmmmmm. Yes.)

Two:
Week one of the holidays is almost over. GAH. I haven’t had time for ANYTHING yet. I’m only just starting to get back into writing another part of Pack Your Bags and it’s FRIDAY. I really want the boys to have sex some time ever, but they’re demanding more plot, the bastards.

Three:
Good Friday! Or, as I like to think of it: Really Morbid Friday. Having sins forgiven rox. Cheers, dude.

Four:
Supernatural fandom is awesome! I feel a little further dragged out of my anonymous corner lately, but it’s worth it to be able to share fic with people who are really enjoying it.

Five:
I’m leaving for my Blenheim-Wellington trip on Tuesday. Looking forward to it, oh yes! Mum’s home-cooking! Brothers to hug! City to explore! funfun!

Okay! I’m done for now. Love love!

DOT.Finished term one! Three weeks of holiday now! Well, holiday from class. I am working lots this week so I don't actually get a day off till saturday BUT, no more assignments due.

DOT.Working on another part of Pack Your Bags. Wrote 1,500 words tonight but now I need sleeep.

DOT.I'm visiting my parents, and then my brother in two weeks. YEY! Tripp! To Blenheim and then Wellington! Been about two years since I was in Wellington so I'm looking forward to that!

DOT.I hate my 2IC so much that if I explode into firey balls of doom this thursday/friday, you'll know why, I'm working with him for two whole 9-6 days. My manager has given me special dispensation to call other managers and vent if he pisses me off too much. -__-;;

Okay, enough chatter, I've got lots to write/do tomorrow so much get sleep! Before 3am preferably!

Peeji out.

I just wrote a fic. 2,000 words of fic that demanded to be written. (I know, I know, no big deal for like, every writer out there, but a big deal for me!)

Supernatural 4x16 coda. Of a sort. I'll be right back to post but I've gotta at least read it over once before bed. I just had to take a crow moment.

aaaaaahrognspidrpvbdsiuoe;qaldkcn!

I fail at life! I have SO MUCH homework to do. It's actually ABSURD. I think our lecturers actually take pleasure in the look of fear on our faces when they assign these tasks to us.

Anyway, despite all that. (Well, not despite, I have done lots of work every day this week.) I have managed to carve out some time for fanfic today and got the editing done for DMT_07. I gotta find someone to beta now, and then (barring OMG THIS IS SHIT news from the beta,) we'll be up and running again. -_-;;

Upon re-reading and a bit of cleaning up, I quite like this chapter. It does seem very short, but it is 3,000 words. *shrugs* Maybe it's just because this is another saga in the never-ending chapter of doom that is now 3 chapters (instead of one) and counting. zom.

Oh oh, (as if my life wasn't busy enough,) I had my first official Kung Fu lesson last night! My back muscles are reeeeally sore. (but not my legs, strangely) I had a HEAP of fun.

There's lots more I could say but I have no time! Love love to everyone!

Hokay! So! Week-of-short-stories kind of ended with just two, but that's markedly better than none so I consider that a win. I plan on doing more, just not RIGHT this second. Several of the shorts tried to grow so I had to put them aside.

Right now I am working on DMT_07. This week I am back to class, so that puts pressure on there, too. My first class on Kinship was AWESOME and I'm already nose-down into study for it, because it's one of these ones that I HAVE to get a good mark for. WOO.

I get my tattoo tomorrow. I am very excited. Part of me wants to stay up all night or something. It's like christmas! I will temporarily post a pic and then take it down so people can't steal my AWESOME design. (XD) I'm feeling chuffed because I embarked on a mission to shape up my arms before I got it done, expecting to make very little difference, but in only one month my arms are VISIBLY different. I feel cool and strong-lady!

Alright, I gotta go. I may post a short tomorrow depending on tiredness levels and whether some of these stories will let me force them to ONLY BE SHORT!

Love love!

Okay so, after consultation it was been agreed that DMT_07 will be chopped for the second time and turn into 7 and 8. However, before we get ahead of ourselves, another of my week-of-short-stories. This one IS original fic. Yay me.

(Previous Short-Story Challenge Entries: #01: Spn - Beds.)

Title: Ella In The Rain
Short-Story Challenge Entry: #02
Author: Page Russet (page_r)
Rating: G
Summary: On both sides of the window it's raining.
Word Count: 444 (symmetry ftw!)
Warnings: unbeta'd. written at midnight.
Disclaimer: I CLAIM! IT IS MINE! ALL MINE! *clutches at copyright*

( Original Fic - Ella In The Rain )


A/N: Randomly, (not that anyone cares) Ella was named after my brother's girlfriend's cat, who is totally gorgeous. (both the girlfriend and the cat.) Also, gotta say, this challenge is totally fun and others should try it if they feel the urge.

Okay, in my deep frustration in not getting blindingly stellar marks in my Creative Writing for Stage paper I've been thinking about the flaws in my writing skill. I have two main problems:

Subtlety is not my middle name. Or even the middle name of my long-lost pirate cousins off the coast of Conrwall.

I can't write short stories. Seriously, SO HARD. Especially when it's not fanfic. So, this week (I have a week off uni now) I am attempting to write one short story a day, aiming for around 400 words. I'm going to attempt to have at least a couple as original fic. But this one wanted to be Spn so! Here! My first ever finished Spn fic!

Title: Finding Our Way
Author: Page Russet (page_r)
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam n Dean (I actually thought of this as being Sam/Dean established as I wrote it, but that doesn't specifically come through.)
Rating: G
Words: 617

( Supernatural Fanfic: Finding Our Way )

DIE,

NEVER-ENDING,

MIND-BREAKING

PLAY OF DOOM!

WHY WON'T YOU JUST DIE!?!

EDITED TO ADD:

It's 2am. I am exhausted but it's finiiiiiished. *Curls up into a ball of ded and dies*