[Season 5 spoliers. But I'm not cutting coz... Season 5 has been going for a while now, dudes.]

IF SAM BEING LUCIFER'S HOST MEANS HE GETS CRAZY DEMON-SUCKING POWERS AND SHIT...


WHAT COOL POWERS DOES DEAN GET???

Don't wind yourself up over minor or non-existent issues. It's a waste of space and time. The Doctor would not approve of such abuses.


( Things I'm learning about post-grad )

I'm feeling like writing at the moment. Did some original work yesterday, being tempted by a million other fannish pursuits. Don't have time for either, anyway.

By the way, the BF's mother was really nice! And I think I passed without her hating me! Yay!

Have Danneel and Jensen got married yet? Does anyone know this? Is anyone other than me interested in my epic Danneel/Genevieve & J2 fic I keep almost-writing?

Hi all. Long time no post. I think no one is surprised by now, so lets just skip the gnashing of teeth and move on.

In news of Life of Peeji, I'm in my last week of Working Too Much at my workplace, and just starting my second week of Working Too Much at uni.

I spent 6 HOURS today researching video game titles for use in my honours thesis.

6 HOURS

I'm going to hate myself by the end of this, seriously. Will NEVER be able to play video games again. (but right now, I'm just really excited and can't believe I'm allowed to do this as an academic pursuit.)

I'm thrilled, I gotta say, to finally be doing post-grad. I feel like a fraud, and that any moment someone will point and say, 'You don't belong here!' I'm just so grateful that I've made it this far and I hope I can do well.

Also, doing research on video games? EXPENSIVE. @_@

I'm going to have no life at all this year. It's going to be awesome. Two of the girls doing post-grad Anth are also massive geeks like me. They helped me search for titles this afternoon because they were bored. *beams*

I miss writing right now, but there just isn't any time. Maybe once I've got into a routine. Right now I'm trying to pack 40 hours of study into three days a week and there just is. no. time. Writing is never forgotten for me, though.

Anyway, I gotta get some sleep. Just wanted to say hi to the outside world.

P.S. Jared just got married and even though I'm so happy for him, and not even Jared obsessed, a little part of me was all sad yesterday. ^_^;;

I don't know if anyone else gets this, but if I go for long enough without writing anything it's like I go INSANE. No, seriously, I can't concentrate, I have fits of BLINDING RAGE and yell at people and kick things lots and generally feel like I'm losing my mind.

I was trying to figure out why I was so pissed off the last couple of days and it clicked.

Anyway, despite the fact that I am completely STUCK with all FOUR potential things I'm writing at the moment, I have two hours tonight before I absolutely have to sleep and I absolutely HAVE to write something. Because I can't handle another day like this where I am a CRAZY PERSON.

So, any suggestions? Prompts? Requests?

EDIT 11:30pm: Can't keep my eyes open anymore so sleep now. 600 words, slightly less peeved and a random little Sam/Dean fuck-or-die started. (This fandom DOESN'T HAVE ENOUGH OF THESE. So I will write one. Yey.)

Kind of.

Hi all, sorry that I've disappeared completely over the last year couple of months. I'm home sick from work today which is the only real reason I have time for this entry today, but because I'm sick I'm pretty tired, so I'll try keep it short.

Where I've been:

-Mostly work. Been working 40-60 hour weeks, which isn't the end of the world for some people, I guess, but I'm not used to it at all, so I just have NO ENERGY at the end of the day. None. Whatsoever. I haven't even been reading, I just come home and refresh facebook a few times then sleep. Also I have two hour-long commutes on top of 9-hour shifts so there isn't really any time, quite apart from the tiredness.

-Family. My parents announced mid-December that they (dad) had decided they should definitely split up. So. Um. Yeah. Things have been pretty stressful and busy on that front. My mum has moved down here for the time being, staying with her sister, but since they've been married for 36 years, and she's never been independent, there's kind of a massive learning curve for her. So any time I'm not at work I'm usually helping her out with things like opening her own bank account and all this... CRAP that... anyway, I'm not going to get into the emotional side of it, it's just a huge time and energy suck right now.

-Other people. On the maybe two nights a week I'm not at work or with Mum or sleeping I try to schedule in my poor boyfriend (he's earned the word now, mostly... on the days it doesn't freak me out,) or one of those weird people that think I have time to be their friend. Silly, silly people.

That's about it. I'm really tired. I have another month before uni starts and oh MAN I'm looking forward to it. And to think I thought I would have MORE time in the holidays. After mininano I haven't done really any writing these holidays.

BUT

I have been working on Dry My Tears over the last few weeks. (!!!)

I gotta go lie down, but I just want to say sorry to the world for turning into a ghost lately, can't guarantee non-ghostlikeness for the rest of the month, but I'm trying my best. :)

As always, love love!

It's possible I just spent the last hour or so watching all my favourite songs from the first 5 episodes of Glee.

*coughs*

I DEMAND SOME SERIOUS PROPOSAL FIC RIGHT NOW. COME ON, PEOPLE.

J2 will always be my main love but if I'm going to read some het, Danneel better damn well be in it and I WANT SOME PROPOSAL FIC!

*throws confetti*

I'm just so HAPPY for them! I don't fear for the fandom at ALL really, (esp if Jared and Gen are engaged too, that's just too perfect for double-blind scenarios.

OOO! In fact, I feel compelled to point out that Jensen and Danneel started being more open and spending-time ish around when Genevieve started working on Spn. Did Danneel develop an epic romance? I THINK SO. In fact, someone also needs to write the epic romance of Gen and Danneel as well in the context of some J2 lovvviiin.)

Okay, back in reality-land, so, SO happy for Jensen and Danneel. I really hope it works out for them.

(linky, for those who don't know)

Also, another 700 words today. Aiming to finish tomorrow or Weds. Also sorted out majority of enrolment for 2010. Yay.

Oh gosh, I'm sorry for the endless updates lately, I tend to post a lot when I'm writing. Or facebook. But I'm having an anti-facebook week so you poor folks get me instead.

So I just finished the final scene! There's still the earlier one or two to write, but the ending is all endy and over and *flaps* this feel really significant for me because this is essentially my first longish fic actually FINISHED. And I actually LIKE it! It's not perfect, but the ending is good enough that it's making me all teary and flappy and, and, and I hope it make you feel that way, too, I just gotta finish it, first!

I was stuck on 131 words earlier so I was like, 'eh, better put in the effort to get to my 200' and then I got all sucked in and everything was flowing and it ended up being 1,247! Yaaaay! Gonna try do more while I'm on a roll but it's so time for a word-count check. I am so enamoured of mini_nano right now THERE ARE NO WORDS! (OR MAYBE LOTS, DEPENDING ON HOW YOU READ THAT!)

3981 / 7000 words. 57% done!

I had an exciting moment on Friday while writing when I suddenly realised that I was writing the last scene of my post-S4 AU. I was a little surprised, because I'd been expecting the write maybe another four or so after that, but a little voice went, 'You know, this would be a really good point to end the fic.' and after thinking about it for a while I couldn't help but agree.

SO! I have to finish this scene, and there are two earlier scenes I've basically just gone, 'put the scene with the coffee and knives here' or whatever, but after that and some editing it will, after five months, be DONE.

(I don't suppose anyone would be able to pull beta duty for me in a couple of days?)

EEE! Excited!!

Wow, okay, life overload. I'm up in Blenheim at the moment, staying with Mum and Dad until Saturday. Finished class okay, I can pick up my final assignments when I get back which I'm pretty keen to do, and gotta sort out my enrolment for next year, which potentially is going to be extremely confusing because I have a mental year of half-undergrad half-honours including a whole-year paper that I have to start half-way through and BAH! Yeah, I have to go in to do it in person, because it's not going to work online.

Anyway! I'm doing mini_nanowrimo, 200 words minimum a day. Got about 500 so far. Working on my Season 4 follow up first. It's at 10,000 words at the moment, I'm hoping to finish it pretty soon. I think it doesn't completely suck, so looking forward to that. After that I'm working on another Spn WiP, I think. But for some reason I don't feel like telling anyone about what's happening with that one, but I really really like it. (To the point where I'm finding it hard to continue it because what's there is so good I don't want to ruin it!)

Been working a million hours, (last week it was 46, including one 13 hour day. No thanks) but that's over now for 11 days. 11 whole days of FREEDOM. Hoping to do lots and lots of writing, catching up with people and reeessting.

What's going on with everyone else? I have been totally fail at the internet over the last month. So so so so so so sorry!

Holy crap my flist just EXPLODED. It's raining fic! So much yay to the mods and members of j2_remix. SO. MUCH. LOVE.

I might be getting a week off work! A REAL holiday! But first I have not next week but the week after where I work 42 hours. Which is like, the most I've ever worked, (not including Uni) in one week before. Woo.

( Spn 5x06 reaction in brief )

Meanwhile, I didn't get my scholarships, but I'm not panicking because I'm actually really looking forward to some time off uni. I might actually catch up with some writing and some reading and read some Durkheim and shit like that that I never actually get around to while DOING my degree.

Worky work tomorrow. Peace out!

P.S. Is it really wrong when you see someone on your flist that is listed as a mutual friend and you have NO IDEA who they are? I've decided that they must be one of the many people who have used a rename token lately because I'm pretty sure last time I checked I had a pretty good idea of who everyone was... o_0

I've decided that the reason I've been in such a heinously foul mood for the last couple of weeks is because of being in Salt Withdrawal.

I have to confess that for years and years I've been a salt addict. When I was a child and no one could find the salt-shaker they would come and knock on my door to see if I had it (...I usually did). And one of the things I often have been heard to crow about as being a penultimate glory of living away from home is that I have THREE salt-shakers stationed in the house, one in my room, one in front of the TV, and one in the kitchen. (If we used the dining room more than once a week there would probably be one in there, too, but I just move one, and usually have a fit when I can't find it later...)

Anyway, I've known about the thing where slat hardens your arteries, but I always dismissed coz well, I don't do drugs, I don't smoke, I don't drink, I barely ever eat fast-food and I exercise fairly regularly, I gotta have ONE vice, right? And if all those other boxes are ticked then surely salt wouldn't be too bad? Then my brother was telling me about his Chief, (from his combat academy) who is approximately ten times healthier than I will likely ever be, who had to cut salt out completely because it was really badly impacting his health.


:(


So, I'm cutting out salt except when its in things already, for cooking, or on tomatoes, steak or chicken sandwiches. (and then only the minimum amount)

This was supposed to be a really short entry about salt withdrawal, sorry, clearly I miss it a lot.

2 more days til 50% assignment is duuuuue. Saaaaave meeeee.

This will also be short:

( Spoilerishness )

Can someone please tell me what is going on with Sam's sideburns at the moment? Are they ALWAYS that insane? Much more of this craziness and he and Wolverine will be having a extreme-hair-off.

I somehow just can't quite picture him in the early hours scraping so carefully away to emphasise his cheekbones just so. o_0

P.S. Dollhouse Season 2? Oh YES PLEASE.

P.P.S. I'm having one of my bad weeks. I hate the world. Fic is up to 7,000 words though.