28 August 2008 @ 06:57 pm
grumpy face  
I feel crap.

crap crap crappity crap crap.

I have lots to do and no time. >:( I have big essay of DOOM. (which isn't actually a doom essay at all, it's a really interesting topic, but it's really important and I have not enough time left to do what I want to do with it).

I really, desperately want to write, but I have so many different projects going that my brain can't handle it and the one thing that I really really should be doing writing-wise is typing out DMT_07 but that's not writing in the creative sense so doesn't fulfil my demanding muse-like-scream in the back of my head and *cries*

I have lots of emails and comments and things I should be catching up on but I just can't make myself do anything much at the moment. I am shocky and strange and disconnected. I know when I get like this I really should write because that straightens me out but my mind is whirling too much.

Maybe I should just give up on doing other things tonight and just write some shorts. Start and finish something.

mmmm, bye sanity, see you in a while.


Edit: Started working on my Spike/Xander fic again. I don't know how, but every time I read the start of this fic I wrote a few months ago (which, upon checking my journal, I seem not to have mentioned before. BY THE WAY, guys, I'm about 2,200 words into a one-shot, longish (maybe around 10,000 words?) S/X fic.) I fall totally in love with it. By some strange flash of random awesome I seem to have got the voices reasonably close-to-canon (probably because I watch buffy waaaay too much) and the fic is hot and interesting. So. working some more on that coz it's the only thing not driving me more crazy at the moment. 600 words in tonight.

Edit edit: As of 1am, the point of, 'Oh gosh stop you have work in the morning!' 1,486 words! Fucking HAXX! That so justifies my writing-fuge. And kind of justifies my lack of essay writing. Kind of.

Right, I'm off to bed and then work for the next two days. Bluhg.
 
 
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 07:43 am (UTC)
*HUGS*

..happier? :D

have some pretties :3 & some more. ooo highschoolaufanart! especially for you~

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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 08:07 am (UTC)
Yes, actually, just a little. Those glasses look ridiculous on chunnie. o_0 *gathers up basket of pretties to put in her chest of colours.*

I am attempting to write some Spike/Xander. Because I have the first part of a fic but it is trying to be extremely derivative. :/ But hey, this is fanfic, if I can't be lazy and derivative in this forum then I never will be and if the fic is interesting who cares, right? .....
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 08:13 am (UTC)
:D yay. b/c otherwise changmin would nuclear punch you.


mmmm Spiiiike. all art is derivative :D a few days ago i read an absolute clone of my doppelganger su. that makes two :| i don't think derivative should be a problem :]
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 08:20 am (UTC)
OH MY GOSH THAT IS THE SADDEST SCENE IN THE UNIVERSE! I don't know if you have ever seen the first pokemon movie but that's from it and it's a VERY EMOTIONAL SCENE AND REALLY SHOULDN'T HAVE CHANGMIN'S HEAD PASTED INTO IT. IT IS A VERY IMPORTANT EXPRESSION OF THE VALUE OF PASSIVISM! *is a little horrified*

hahaha, but this is reeeeally derivative. Both of other stories and of my OWN stuff. But, bleh, I still like it enough to keep going. I think I will put links in the author notes and say, 'these people totally did this first but I wanted more so I wrote some myself'
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 08:32 am (UTC)
D: SORRY *LMAO* um, bananas, actually i haven't, and had no ideeeea what the context was. i just found it funny. this is why things without context are bad bad bad :|
i'll make it up to you like the junchun & by crying like su for the gif-makers wrongs:


hmmmm well...*shrugs* i never mind when people play in my verses :D
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:03 am (UTC)
It's a very epic scene. An evil pokemon made clones of other pokemon and that scene is when they're all trying too kill each other because they're different (but the same) and then they have this bag rant about how fighting just hurts everyone and there the clone of Pikachu is hitting Pickachu and he is refusing to fight back because it's SENSELESS. And then Ash jumps in front of a big power-blast to try and stop the fighting and he DIES and it's AWFUL AND SAD AND BEAUTIFUL. ;_; Not that I've seen that movie like, ten million times or anything.... >_> Changmin's expression in the gif is very lol though.

*is overwhelmed by other cuteness*

That's what I figure! I'm just spreading the love!
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:06 am (UTC)
sounds amazing and intensely post-war japanese but now you've wrecked the film for me so i shall probably never see it...:D

:) *stops now*

yes! plus most fanfiction is incredibly formulaic anyway.
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:09 am (UTC)
I haven't WRECKED it! That's not the END!!! (And you totally wouldn't have watched it anyway! don't try and pull that on me!)

You are good cheering-friend!

*nods nods*
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:11 am (UTC)
but you sad Ash dies, and that's not cool Page :|!!! (I MIGHT'VE!)

*pleased* i try!
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:15 am (UTC)
The movie totally has a happy ending, kindof! Do you guys have a functioning VCR? I'm totally going to send it to you now. @_@ (yes yes, I do own it. I was like, 12! ....not that my age would stop my buying it now if I didn't already own it, but hey...)

You win!
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:32 am (UTC)
We do but hay hay I haven't even sent yr DVD-Rs back yet, let's just watch it next time we meet :D *pets*
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 09:37 am (UTC)
Well I don't have a VCR, but who knows when/where our next meet up will be. We could go crash my Nanna's place just to use the player. XDDD Ahahahahaha, that makes me imagine what if one of my relatives found out. They'd freak out, but they wouldn't be able to SAY ANYTHING because there's not REASON why we SHOULDN'T go there. Mwahahahahaha (Peeji still hasn't forgiven her relatives for making her feel unwelcome in her own grandmother's house, can you tell?)

I'm thinking of staying up all night to get some stuff done, good idea/bad idea?
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 10:07 am (UTC)
RELATIVES ARE FAIL. WE SHOULD CRASH ALL HOUSES. or uh, sth, idek. let's just keep it in mind or...sth.

...bad idea. BAD IDEA.
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 10:47 am (UTC)
Hahahaha, I can see your mind go from awesome to concequences. heh. I think with should get up to Innocent Mischief. <- the kind which is mischievous but we can't officially get in trouble for. XD

Sigh. Well, I don't have to get up till like, 10 tomorrow, so I can at least stay up till 2. :/ How's the slave-fic going? How's the pyro!su going!?! Is that on the plan for holidays?
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 10:53 am (UTC)
LOL no i am totally for mischief! i meant keep the film in mind? idk what i meant, i was in the middle of cooking because i was uber hungry :3

well if it works for you ♥ i finished reading slavefic! it pwned. although towards the end (i assume bits that she hadn't had other people look over) got a bit 'eh!? say what now?' but i like how it reads like typical romance novel. maybe because that's the kinda writing i can't do.
pyro!su is currently all in longhand and mostly in my head. i swore i would never write in longhand again (esp since this should be ~10,000w) but there it is :\ hopefully i shall remedy my love for longhand though. pronto. soyeah definitely on the cards!
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 11:18 am (UTC)
Hahaha, the part of the conversation where one, 'makes vague noises of agreement'

AHRG! Longhand HATE HATE HATE. I am totally in hate with longhand right now. Because I've been writing lots in weird places like at work and stuff, heaps of my fics are all, half-and-half where one half of a scene I will have written at home and the other on the bus or something strange like that. It's driving me NUTS because I just can't be bothered typing everything up. A sentiment I'm sure you understand to even greater depths than I! Maybe you should develop some systems for yourself to equal the ones you have for writing longhand? Well, I dunno about you but I have all these notation systems which I have to shift around when I'm writing something long on the computer. One of the main ones is that every time I change anything major as I go along I save a new file, so I never worry about fucking up a good thing with a bad thing. I also use footnotes and stuff sometimes...
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[identity profile] mimei.livejournal.com on August 28th, 2008 11:16 pm (UTC)
;)

ugh, that sounds messy and annoying (although i revere you for being able to write on buses. i'm too :s too most of the time). yeah typing snap quite literally destroyed any tolerance i have for longhand, even if i prefer it because it takes away all computerish distractions. so i'm gonna start typing the pyro!su. maybe after i work on the host!su though....anyway, notation is a very good idea but i don't have Word so i'll keep it in mind for if i ever do!
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[identity profile] prairie-grass.livejournal.com on September 1st, 2008 12:12 pm (UTC)
Uh, sure, I don't use it very much though. If I add you will it just turn up? I don't want to have it available on this journal.
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