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prairie_grass) wrote2008-08-28 06:57 pm
prairie_grass) wrote2008-08-28 06:57 pm
grumpy face
I feel crap.
crap crap crappity crap crap.
I have lots to do and no time. >:( I have big essay of DOOM. (which isn't actually a doom essay at all, it's a really interesting topic, but it's really important and I have not enough time left to do what I want to do with it).
I really, desperately want to write, but I have so many different projects going that my brain can't handle it and the one thing that I really really should be doing writing-wise is typing out DMT_07 but that's not writing in the creative sense so doesn't fulfil my demanding muse-like-scream in the back of my head and *cries*
I have lots of emails and comments and things I should be catching up on but I just can't make myself do anything much at the moment. I am shocky and strange and disconnected. I know when I get like this I really should write because that straightens me out but my mind is whirling too much.
Maybe I should just give up on doing other things tonight and just write some shorts. Start and finish something.
mmmm, bye sanity, see you in a while.
Edit: Started working on my Spike/Xander fic again. I don't know how, but every time I read the start of this fic I wrote a few months ago (which, upon checking my journal, I seem not to have mentioned before. BY THE WAY, guys, I'm about 2,200 words into a one-shot, longish (maybe around 10,000 words?) S/X fic.) I fall totally in love with it. By some strange flash of random awesome I seem to have got the voices reasonably close-to-canon (probably because I watch buffy waaaay too much) and the fic is hot and interesting. So. working some more on that coz it's the only thing not driving me more crazy at the moment.600 words in tonight.
Edit edit: As of 1am, the point of, 'Oh gosh stop you have work in the morning!' 1,486 words! Fucking HAXX! That so justifies my writing-fuge. And kind of justifies my lack of essay writing. Kind of.
Right, I'm off to bed and then work for the next two days. Bluhg.
crap crap crappity crap crap.
I have lots to do and no time. >:( I have big essay of DOOM. (which isn't actually a doom essay at all, it's a really interesting topic, but it's really important and I have not enough time left to do what I want to do with it).
I really, desperately want to write, but I have so many different projects going that my brain can't handle it and the one thing that I really really should be doing writing-wise is typing out DMT_07 but that's not writing in the creative sense so doesn't fulfil my demanding muse-like-scream in the back of my head and *cries*
I have lots of emails and comments and things I should be catching up on but I just can't make myself do anything much at the moment. I am shocky and strange and disconnected. I know when I get like this I really should write because that straightens me out but my mind is whirling too much.
Maybe I should just give up on doing other things tonight and just write some shorts. Start and finish something.
mmmm, bye sanity, see you in a while.
Edit: Started working on my Spike/Xander fic again. I don't know how, but every time I read the start of this fic I wrote a few months ago (which, upon checking my journal, I seem not to have mentioned before. BY THE WAY, guys, I'm about 2,200 words into a one-shot, longish (maybe around 10,000 words?) S/X fic.) I fall totally in love with it. By some strange flash of random awesome I seem to have got the voices reasonably close-to-canon (probably because I watch buffy waaaay too much) and the fic is hot and interesting. So. working some more on that coz it's the only thing not driving me more crazy at the moment.
Edit edit: As of 1am, the point of, 'Oh gosh stop you have work in the morning!' 1,486 words! Fucking HAXX! That so justifies my writing-fuge. And kind of justifies my lack of essay writing. Kind of.
Right, I'm off to bed and then work for the next two days. Bluhg.
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..happier? :D
have some pretties :3 & some more. ooo highschoolaufanart! especially for you~
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I am attempting to write some Spike/Xander. Because I have the first part of a fic but it is trying to be extremely derivative. :/ But hey, this is fanfic, if I can't be lazy and derivative in this forum then I never will be and if the fic is interesting who cares, right? .....
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mmmm Spiiiike. all art is derivative :D a few days ago i read an absolute clone of my doppelganger su. that makes two :| i don't think derivative should be a problem :]
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hahaha, but this is reeeeally derivative. Both of other stories and of my OWN stuff. But, bleh, I still like it enough to keep going. I think I will put links in the author notes and say, 'these people totally did this first but I wanted more so I wrote some myself'
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*LMAO*um, bananas, actually i haven't, and had no ideeeea what the context was. i just found it funny. this is why things without context are bad bad bad :|i'll make it up to you like the junchun & by crying like su for the gif-makers wrongs:
hmmmm well...*shrugs* i never mind when people play in my verses :D
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*is overwhelmed by other cuteness*
That's what I figure! I'm just spreading the love!
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:) *stops now*
yes! plus most fanfiction is incredibly formulaic anyway.
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You are good cheering-friend!
*nods nods*
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*pleased* i try!
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You win!
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I'm thinking of staying up all night to get some stuff done, good idea/bad idea?
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...bad idea. BAD IDEA.
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Sigh. Well, I don't have to get up till like, 10 tomorrow, so I can at least stay up till 2. :/ How's the slave-fic going? How's the pyro!su going!?! Is that on the plan for holidays?
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well if it works for you ♥ i finished reading slavefic! it pwned. although towards the end (i assume bits that she hadn't had other people look over) got a bit 'eh!? say what now?' but i like how it reads like typical romance novel. maybe because that's the kinda writing i can't do.
pyro!su is currently all in longhand and mostly in my head. i swore i would never write in longhand again (esp since this should be ~10,000w) but there it is :\ hopefully i shall remedy my love for longhand though. pronto. soyeah definitely on the cards!
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AHRG! Longhand HATE HATE HATE. I am totally in hate with longhand right now. Because I've been writing lots in weird places like at work and stuff, heaps of my fics are all, half-and-half where one half of a scene I will have written at home and the other on the bus or something strange like that. It's driving me NUTS because I just can't be bothered typing everything up. A sentiment I'm sure you understand to even greater depths than I! Maybe you should develop some systems for yourself to equal the ones you have for writing longhand? Well, I dunno about you but I have all these notation systems which I have to shift around when I'm writing something long on the computer. One of the main ones is that every time I change anything major as I go along I save a new file, so I never worry about fucking up a good thing with a bad thing. I also use footnotes and stuff sometimes...
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ugh, that sounds messy and annoying (although i revere you for being able to write on buses. i'm too :s too most of the time). yeah typing snap quite literally destroyed any tolerance i have for longhand, even if i prefer it because it takes away all computerish distractions. so i'm gonna start typing the pyro!su. maybe after i work on the host!su though....anyway, notation is a very good idea but i don't have Word so i'll keep it in mind for if i ever do!
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