Okay, I think I've just decided that I can't write, and that despite having an awesomely cool idea for a story, I am completely incapable of doing justice to said story's awesomeness, and really, I should just give up, crawl into a hole and die - ridding the world of my unhelpful, stupidly annoying lack of ability.


RARG!

Instead, as it is the story I created, I will continue to write it, even though it's SHIT, knowing that if someone else cooler than me wrote this story they could make it SO MUCH BETTER, and hope that the characters will forgive me for doing such a bloody poor job of it. *flails and stomps*

Meanwhile, because I've been hiding from writing due to the above reasons, my brain has reverted to it's old ways of hitting me upside the head with entire new storylines when I least expect it. I came up with a whole new story the other day - in a three part series form, but the only problem is that it's a FUCKING ANIME (or manga)!

No no, seriously, this story _cannot exist_ in written form, it HAS to be visual and I JUST CAN'T DRAW THAT WELL! *weeps* Because I'm a sad, sad individual with no time and no ability, I'm thinking of just sending the whole plot sypnosis off to some anime company somewhere and seeing if they'll take it off my hands, just because I can't deal with having his kick-ass story and not being able to do anything with it. The downside is, well, *pets story* it's miiiiine, I don't want anyone else to write it and I doubt Random Anime Company (even if they did accept the sypnosis,) would be interested in some random english person writing the scripts for them. *flails again* I suppose I should say this even though it won't work out like that because nothing in life works out like that, but if anyone is or knows someone with professional (or near professional) level artistic ability who might be interested in co-oping this project with me, I would be more than thrilled. (It's het, too, so you can ask your straighter friends as well. :/)

Anyway, I'm a little bummed about that, but also stoked to have come up with a new concept, I just wish I could do something with it ;_;

So yeah, I'm off to write badly, and maybe catch up on the stupidly large amounts of txts, emails and comments I'm behind on. @_@