Absolutely! (or at least wherever possible!) I don't think that putting on 4kg is too bad though, it's not like your body carries a lot of weight normally. Still, a little concerning if there's not good reason for it.

Man, I just risked calling my Dad for the first time in like 2 weeks, because I've been so angry I didn't think I could. There was minimal yelling but fuck, I don't think there's anything redeemable there at all. He has just totally disengaged from the marriage. At one point he was like, 'I think you're trying to fix us' and I was like, 'WELL WHY THE HELL WOULDN'T I!?! You're my PARENTS!' and then started bawling my eyes out. I just hope at this point I can salvage some kind of a relationship with him, because I've always been on Mum's side, and there was kind a tacit acknowledgement of that today when we were about to hang up and he was like, 'Thanks for making an attempt, don't go away amongst all this.' I was like, 'I'll try' I mean, it's not just his fault but like, so much of the marriage has become negative because of him that I can't help but be like, 'why won't you just TRY!?' Fuck. I shouldn't ... I just shouldn't, but it's so HARD.

And yes, meanwhile I'm like, 'wow, marriages really can't last forever...' at this point my head is really fucked up about it but I'm trying to view it like, people come into your life and you love them and commit to them, and if they move on again you can try to make that parting such that you can remain friends. I dunno. The statistics still are that half of marriages work, but there does seem to be a new theme of people splitting once the kids have grown up. It's kind of freaky and awful. I mean, I always knew it was difficult but I thought that there were good bits in between that made up for it. I guess not.

Sorry for ranting on, but I know you understand, so, *clings*

You can borrow my camera as much as you like! I'm planning on photo bonanza so I can finally get a nice one of you to put on my photo wall.