30 August 2010 @ 12:16 pm
An update on nearly everything.  
Hi all. Long time no post, I know. Post-graduate work is not always fun!

So! Let me update you on my so-interesting life, yes?

1. I went to a party last night and FLIPPED OUT. Seriously, the closest I've been to a full-blown panic attack in ages. The Boyfriend was awesome and super-nice and took me home even though we'd only just got there, and he was really looking forward to the free food. I felt like such an awful party-pooper, but so glad when I got home to be able to snuggle up on the couch and remind myself I didn't have to go outside again until it was DAYTIME! YAY! I think the stress of Honours is feeding into the mild agoraphobia I'm pretty sure I have. :/ Going out at night has very suddenly got much much harder in the last few weeks. This does happen to me from time to time, but not as badly as it did last night. So. In some ways I don't really mind. I'd rather be socially crippled than physically, in terms of where the stress is going, because at least I can still work on thesis when I'm freaking out and hiding in my room rather than sick! I'm deciding not to worry about it, because I'm pretty sure it will get better once the pressure of this year is lower. *nods firmly*

2. Wrote the synopsis to an entire original fic last week. Woo. Full-on. It's very very weird, so if I ever got around to writing it it would only be for online. No publisher would go near it! *laughs* Still, it was fun to see that my creative-brain is still operating in there somewhere, even when it's been smothered by a million essays and what-not this month. Other writing projects are being prodded-at later this week, I hope, depending on my progress with MORE essays. ;_;

3. SPN! New season starting in what, three weeks now? I had a S5 coda half-written, so I might try push that into shape this week, otherwise it'll get eated! I'm SO nervous and also excited for this new season! Very mildly spoiled, and it doesn't SOUND like it's going to be shit, so we'll see.

4. I've been keeping a food-diary to hopefully sort out the digestive problems I've been having lately. Good GRIEF it's a frightening experience to see all your bad eating-choices permanently inscribed on paper in front of you. I bought VEGETABLES at the supermarket this week. LOTS of them. @_@ I also printed out the better pain-chart to put at the front so the doctor can refer to it. Hyperbole and a Half has recently changed my entire world.

5. I bought a new computer! Did I say that here? *checks* No! I didn't! I haven't updated in SO LONG! She's called Isabella (not a Twilight reference) and is very very pretty and very very nice to me, and has a remote, so I've been zombie-ing out to Naruto in the evenings and it's AWESOME because I don't even have to get up to load a new episode. BUT, now I have NO MONEY so I can't afford to buy Star Craft II, which is why I bought her in the first place, (there were other reasons, too, but that sounds more geekily dramatic,) which I think is HILARIOUS.

6. I've been invited to do my MA at Washington University! Which is so fucking cool! But also so incredibly never going to happen because it costs 50,000 USD a YEAR for me to study there. Hahahahahahhaha. But so awesome to be invited. Sigh.

7. RE #6 - I had this really odd conversation with the BF yesterday where we basically talked about how the hell we're going to stay together next year with me probably flying off to another country and him probably starting Masters here. :( I had kind of been ignoring the fact that I have a BF when planning the next stage of life, because a friend recommended it as a way of toning down my life-complications, and also because I kinda didn't think we would last this long. But we have and things are good only getting better, which is GREAT, but also really a :( moment when approaching next year. For now though, I'm going to keep ignoring the problem. *sticks fingers in ears* lalalala~!

I think that's enough of me talking. We all agree? Yes? Okay. Ta ta for now.
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03 December 2009 @ 06:08 pm
Personal entry is personal  
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10 April 2009 @ 10:08 pm
A theory, and some rambling.  
I have a few things to say!

A theory about the Mystery of Sam Winchester and Azazel’s Mysterious Epic Plan.

I was thinking about demons, and angels, and how they need hosts. (Have you got it yet?) And how everyone’s trying to bring on the apocalypse. And set Lucifer free. And I know Lilith is always trying to kill Sam, but it seems interesting that she never quite manages it. Anyway, I suddenly wondered this week if this Whole Thing is that Sam is being made into a perfect host for Lucifer. Because surely Lucifer is so big and badass that he couldn’t inhabit just anyone.


What do you think? I’m not sure about it. I hope it’s not true, because I don’t like the idea of Sam after all this being no more important than being a shell, but it does seem to fit really well. Just an idea. (If someone wants to write it.... go ahead? Especially if Sam gets captured beforehand, and force-fed blood for a while, and goes a little crazy and Dean has to save him. Mmmm. Yes? Someone? EDIT: Or, even better, if Dean gets captured WITH Sam and gets left in a room/cell with Sam as Sam goes progressively more darkside. Mmmmmmmmm. Yes.)

Week one of the holidays is almost over. GAH. I haven’t had time for ANYTHING yet. I’m only just starting to get back into writing another part of Pack Your Bags and it’s FRIDAY. I really want the boys to have sex some time ever, but they’re demanding more plot, the bastards.

Good Friday! Or, as I like to think of it: Really Morbid Friday. Having sins forgiven rox. Cheers, dude.

Supernatural fandom is awesome! I feel a little further dragged out of my anonymous corner lately, but it’s worth it to be able to share fic with people who are really enjoying it.

I’m leaving for my Blenheim-Wellington trip on Tuesday. Looking forward to it, oh yes! Mum’s home-cooking! Brothers to hug! City to explore! funfun!

Okay! I’m done for now. Love love!
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05 January 2009 @ 12:08 am
What? A new year? Life keeps moving? Lies!  
Hi all!

This is just a quick update because it's late and I have class in the morning, but I feel nothing has happened on this journal for long enough that people might be wondering if I was eaten by a taniwha, (if you don't know that that is, Wiki it, they are cool).

What's going on?
- I had a great christmas (well, post-christmas, I didn't leave till boxing day) with my family, mostly just sleeping lots and getting to know my brother's new girlfriend, and swimming, which was nice.

- I also had a great birthday, New Years Eve going on Random Adventures with some friends and then fireworks in the town-square at midnight which were FAB and then hugs and stuff. The actual day was marred by some less-cool stuff with my brother but then my flatmates were really nice and made me a cake so it was okay.

- Today I did some more work on Dry My Tears. ...I KNOW! INSANITY! Over the break at my parents' I started on a J2 short fic as well, but I'm not going to say how/if these will eventuate out because (next point)

- I am about to start my next summer paper - Creative Writing for Stage (today! In 9 hours! Must sleep first!). Which... well, I'm extremely excited/nervous about. I also have my manager going away on holiday in Feb, which is going to make the next two months IN-FUCKING-SANE. Then I have a (WHOLE, OMG!) week of break before semester proper starts again. This coming year is really important to me and is going to be real test of whether I can stick it out in academia, so I am making NO promises about fanfic. It's still a huge priority but it's just extremely hard for me to get my head into writing-mode when I'm obsessing about essays or whatever. On the plus side though, half my papers this year are ON creative writing, which maybe will stir me up more than the last few years. We'll see.

- Finally, 2008 was a real humdinger of a year. Full of massive ups and massive downs. Fail grades and A+es, depression and epiphanies. Friends, family, love and hurt. I don't think I could have squeezed more into the year if I'd tried. A big thank you to everyone who was good to me, a big >:[ to those who were shit to me, and also a big thank you to all the interesting people around at the moment who keep me clicking the refresh button on life, not just the internet.

Note for 2009: Climb more trees.
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07 July 2008 @ 07:28 pm
Unfortunately, life builds up even when you're lame  
I am lame lately! Going through one of those phases where I don't have energy for anything and turning off my brain by reading lots of fic so I don't think about anything. No real reason, just tired and busy with work and, as usual, a lame excuse for a human being.

I'm doing an entry tonight so that I can communicate with anyone/thing other than myself that I am WRITING TONIGHT! Yes! THAT. Because if I'm just left alone with the thought I won't do anything at all.

Because it's been so long since I've updated, I have a really out-of-date 'comments for the week' from like, two weeks ago, but I thought I'd post it anyway.

Comments for the week: Semester over-ness, reading own writing, trip to see mimei, music, reading and readers, me being a dick, feminism, and pretty. )

Also, I want to put a big fat list of all the fic I've read in the last week or so because the big-bang is INSANE and has blown my mind. Recs! )
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Current Music: Epik High - Remapping the Human Soul - Part 2
15 May 2008 @ 06:48 pm
Fuck, I refuse to say 'life is good' because that will result in something awful happening, but I have a JOB and it's a really GREAT job, and this makes me happy.

On the less-positive side, I also have what is trying to be the HARDEST ESSAY IN THE UNIVERSE. The question is: “What are the potential uses and limitations of the ‘ethnography of speaking’ in respect to an analysis of ritual?” which, well, I don't think any of my readers study anthropology so it will sound like jibber-jabber to you, but it's... really weird because it should be really easy to answer but it's so easy to answer that everything I have to say about it takes up about two paragraphs. ...2,000 words? Not even CLOSE, baby! *sighs* Will have to keep pounding at it anyway...

On a positive note, my Classics essay was AWESOME and really interesting and I totally got it in on time which was GREAT. This comment, occurred in relation, however:
Comments for the week:

When it’s 1am, and you’ve just spent about 8 hours writing an essay which is due the next morning, don’t suddenly assume your entire essay is off-topic. You’re probably just losing your mind. Go to bed.

*nods* It was fine the next morning. ^_^ (with some added last-minute tweaking)

Finally, I'd just like to say... something, even though words aren't useful at ALL in this situation, for all the people who have died or are suffering due to the natural disasters in China and Myanmar this week. :(

EDIT: Essay-block - when all else fails, read the recommended texts AGAIN. WHY, WORLD, WHY?
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10 May 2008 @ 02:47 pm
Commentary of the week, because I made the mistake of leaving open a blank document  
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