well let me know when there's a gap. i don't really want to turn up in the middle of a big family meetup, those things destroy me :D

i don't think why i think my life sucks is something i can really discuss in the comments of a public entry. there is no solving it because it is just the big bad hyperbolic ~*~real world~*~. i fit better in America. i am happier in America. America is not called the land of opportunity, the new world, out of arbitrariness. there is nothing in my life to be passionate about. see today's entry. i spend all day performing the same task over and over again. the only thing that breaks the monotony is the occasional bastard of a man or bitch of a secretary. this is the sum of my life. there is nothing else, except not being able to fix things, overindulgences, and wishing i had somewhere the smash my empty beer bottles.

the end!