Right now, I am standing in front of my computer desk, dancing to music while researching Native Title land claims in Australia. I am standing because I have been compulsively eating non-stop or the last few days, and all the sugar and other crap is tying my stomach into knots. I am dancing because of said sugar and also because I'm so, damn sick of sitting still. I'm researching Native Title because I have to write an essay about it before the morning. Woop woop.


You know, so many people have made comments to me during this whole process along the lines of, 'oh, four essays in one week, you'll never make it,' (not that outright, but that's the undertone,) with the implication that I spend all my time reading and never doing work. What I don't think people realise is that I actually work fucking hard at uni; as I think any university student can attest, you don't get as far as the last week of the second year without being able to work hard.

The reason people get this impression, I think, because I talk about how I know how much time I spend reading and how if I spent even half that time on school I'd be getting a hell of a lot more A's than I am right now. I also think people think that because I've failed a few papers I'm kind of not very good at being an academic. Let me discourage this notion! I didn't go to high-school due to a severe illness, so university has been a massive learning curve for me, and continues to be, but I have passed 8 papers in the last two years, and I am fucking proud of that. My marks are consistently no lower than B- (apart from in the languages) and regularly B+ -> A. The only papers I've actually failed are ones where I didn't submit my final assignments; one I never intended on trying because I only took it due to a muck-up in my course enrolments, the other I had way too much pressure time-wise and was severely depressed, (I've also talked to other students from that paper since and they've all said the workload was way out of proportion). I'm not ashamed of that. In fact, I'm very proud of the fact that I passed two of the three papers I was taking last semester despite said depression.

So, I may have less than 24 hours to write this essay, finish another one, then two days to write a third, but I'm not saying to myself, "I doubt I'll make it, I'm not very good at this stuff." No, I'm saying, "I reckon I can do it." And right now, anyone who says otherwise can go the fuck away. Don't bring negativity to my table right now, I'm not buying.

Also, my cat's feet are completely adorable. *kisses them*