Blllllah!

This last week, has been SO INSANE! My parents have been down from Tauranga and they've been wanting to actually spend TIME with me!? I love how everyone thinks, that just because I don't have to go to class, I am available whenever they want. So. Yes. Much death of assignments. May have completely failed my course because of slacking off reading online novels when 50% assignment was due. Damn. What a waste. I think I do get regret points though. I had ANOTHER extreme depression bout. Though less with the screaming and crying than last time. I am so OVER being depressed. It's no longer cool or anything remotely interesting, just something that annoys me and I want it to go away. Been there, done that, fuck off now please.

Anyway! The extremeness of my insanity and the realization that my entire life is turning to crap has brought upon me the desire to get my shit very much together. (If that is even possible), thus, I want to get started on A Grey Future pretty much nowish. I don't really have the whole story completely planned out, so no one is allowed to yell at me if halfway through I just decide to change a whole lot of things, but I spent like, 2 years working on the plot of story #8, and never wrote pretty much any of it, and now I'm sick of planning everything, I want to write something random so that I can hone my skills in preparation for getting into something I actually want published. So thus, A Grey Future. (Still not sure of the title, bear with me here, I always sucked with titles. I wish I could just stick with the numbering system I use for my own sanity.)

So, yes. I have one month now to completely memorize my Anatomy and Physiology books 1 and 2 before my exam. I _think_ I will be able to do it, I also have 2 assignments, and I think 3 reports to get done before June 14. but blah. I'll either do it or I wont. We'll see. I sure as hell am not going to slack off anymore, even if I have to stab myself in the eye every time I start getting distracted by awesome stories and the like. but amidst that, I want to finish tweaking the storyline for AGF, and get stuck into Chapter One. I always hate the first chapter, coz you've got that whole, First Line problem, then the