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Attention span o... BUNNIES!

Muuust stay foooooocussed! *glares at screen*

Don't you just love it when you have an essay that's really due URGENT URGENT DO YOUR WORK NOW due, and all you can do is rotate through LJ, Facebook, three different emails, look back at the essay, write one word then repeat process? That is today, for me.

I have post S5 fic that I am trrrrryyyying to finish before Show (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!) tomorrow, but see essay for why it probably won't get done on time.

I am REALLY FUCKING EXCITED about Show tomorrow. Oh my GOSH. It'll be coming out in the early evening tomorrow (Saturday here) and can take between 1 and 5 hours to download, (if I compare to previous experiences) and I know I won't be able to do ANYTHING in the mean time. I could re-watch? I guess? *flails* I just hope I can finish watching before, you know, 2am. I have Kung Fu at 8AM on Sunday, which I think is AWFUL and CRUEL and UNUSUAL.

Also, GLEE! Yay! Rachel/Michelle is WAY TOO SKINNY, oh my GOSH girl, go eat a PIE!

Right, yes, essay. I'll get right on that.

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Proper post-earthquake survival report

My brain is full of far too many things!

( There was an earthquake. It was interesting... )

Anyway, very long story shorter, my cat came back eventually,

ISN'T SHE SO CUTE? I HAD TO RESIST POSTING ABOUT ELEVENTY BILLION PHOTOS OF HER I AM SO HAPPY SHE IS OKAY!

so did the power, everyone I know is okay, and this has been a VERY strange experience. Meanwhile I was going to rant about life being crazy at the moment, but I have already spend valuable essay-writing time on this entry (read: justifiable procrastination), so I best be off. Thanks for the people that commented on my 'I'm alive!' post. :) I shall continue to live, if in a slightly deranged form, as usual.

Love love!

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Earthquake

Hey all. Just in case anyone was concerned, I am alive and unharmed by earthquake. A lot of the city is pretty fucked, but most places have power and water back on. The university is closed for an extra week, (last week was holidays anyway) because the library is TOTALLED. Half a million books thrown out of their shelves.

We're experiencing a crap-load of aftershocks at the moment, so I'm not too happy right now, but all-in-all the whole thing has been extremely mild considering the size of the quake. I'm just so grateful to be in a country that has good infrastructure.

I'm still massively overloaded with assignments and it's really hard to concentrate on anything at the moment coz the house keeps shaking, and I might volunteer to help with cleanup in some harder-hit areas, so I probably won't be around much for the next few days, but I just wanted to let everyone know I remain alive! (And the cat is okay, too!)

I'm off to bed, because despite having nine aftershocks in the last couple of hours - including two over 5.0 - I need some damn SLEEP.

Peeji out (for now. Will update with all the drama later.)

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An update on nearly everything.

Hi all. Long time no post, I know. Post-graduate work is not always fun!

So! Let me update you on my so-interesting life, yes?

1. I went to a party last night and FLIPPED OUT. Seriously, the closest I've been to a full-blown panic attack in ages. The Boyfriend was awesome and super-nice and took me home even though we'd only just got there, and he was really looking forward to the free food. I felt like such an awful party-pooper, but so glad when I got home to be able to snuggle up on the couch and remind myself I didn't have to go outside again until it was DAYTIME! YAY! I think the stress of Honours is feeding into the mild agoraphobia I'm pretty sure I have. :/ Going out at night has very suddenly got much much harder in the last few weeks. This does happen to me from time to time, but not as badly as it did last night. So. In some ways I don't really mind. I'd rather be socially crippled than physically, in terms of where the stress is going, because at least I can still work on thesis when I'm freaking out and hiding in my room rather than sick! I'm deciding not to worry about it, because I'm pretty sure it will get better once the pressure of this year is lower. *nods firmly*

2. Wrote the synopsis to an entire original fic last week. Woo. Full-on. It's very very weird, so if I ever got around to writing it it would only be for online. No publisher would go near it! *laughs* Still, it was fun to see that my creative-brain is still operating in there somewhere, even when it's been smothered by a million essays and what-not this month. Other writing projects are being prodded-at later this week, I hope, depending on my progress with MORE essays. ;_;

3. SPN! New season starting in what, three weeks now? I had a S5 coda half-written, so I might try push that into shape this week, otherwise it'll get eated! I'm SO nervous and also excited for this new season! Very mildly spoiled, and it doesn't SOUND like it's going to be shit, so we'll see.

4. I've been keeping a food-diary to hopefully sort out the digestive problems I've been having lately. Good GRIEF it's a frightening experience to see all your bad eating-choices permanently inscribed on paper in front of you. I bought VEGETABLES at the supermarket this week. LOTS of them. @_@ I also printed out the better pain-chart to put at the front so the doctor can refer to it. Hyperbole and a Half has recently changed my entire world.

5. I bought a new computer! Did I say that here? *checks* No! I didn't! I haven't updated in SO LONG! She's called Isabella (not a Twilight reference) and is very very pretty and very very nice to me, and has a remote, so I've been zombie-ing out to Naruto in the evenings and it's AWESOME because I don't even have to get up to load a new episode. BUT, now I have NO MONEY so I can't afford to buy Star Craft II, which is why I bought her in the first place, (there were other reasons, too, but that sounds more geekily dramatic,) which I think is HILARIOUS.

6. I've been invited to do my MA at Washington University! Which is so fucking cool! But also so incredibly never going to happen because it costs 50,000 USD a YEAR for me to study there. Hahahahahahhaha. But so awesome to be invited. Sigh.

7. RE #6 - I had this really odd conversation with the BF yesterday where we basically talked about how the hell we're going to stay together next year with me probably flying off to another country and him probably starting Masters here. :( I had kind of been ignoring the fact that I have a BF when planning the next stage of life, because a friend recommended it as a way of toning down my life-complications, and also because I kinda didn't think we would last this long. But we have and things are good only getting better, which is GREAT, but also really a :( moment when approaching next year. For now though, I'm going to keep ignoring the problem. *sticks fingers in ears* lalalala~!

I think that's enough of me talking. We all agree? Yes? Okay. Ta ta for now.

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If all you see is a crater, just back away slowly

Hey all. Today was the first night in about 2 weeks? 3? I've had home alone by myself and nothing super-pressure to do. Seriously, that's actually not an exaggeration. I'm not all woe-is-me about it because there has been many good things, but also those weeks have contained visiting my family (which SUCKED, for the record. It was great seeing my brother but then I spent four days in the same house as my separated parents and an 8 week old puppy, which meant that I was stressed out and tired (puppy) and put through an emotional roller-coaster (parents) but was still a welcome reprieve from my infuriating flatmates) followed by interviews for my thesis, followed by a two-day photo-shoot for a Suicide Girls hopeful, followed by my BFF breaking up with her bf of six years and needing a place to stay. AT THE SAME TIME as one of my other besties going on the rocks with HER bf, which resulted in DANGER DANGER EXTREME SUPPORT REQUIRED for both of them, which wasn't a problem but was pretty worrying and meant I was either out lots or had ppl here. AS WELL as that I'm behind-schedule on my thesis. AS WELL as that my BF and I haven't had a lot of time together lately due to all of the above so I was trying to juggle spending time with him as well as my girls, which kinda made me feel guilty coz I was so happy to be spending time with him I possibly wasn't being the most focussed support!friend I could have been.

ANYWAY. All this means is that I haven't had any time for anything really, but on the very few days I've been able to sit down with my computer and a bit of time, I've been doing my best to keep to writing targets. I wanted to make a post for all interested parties, (and I just checked the read-count on Pomme de Sang so I know that there are at least a few of you *cough*) that this month I am actively working on Dry My Tears and have been making genuine progress. I have a secret goal for when I'm going to get the next chapter up and while I'm not telling in case anyone gets disappointed, let's hope I can hit it!

Meanwhile, new addiction: Bleach. Though the gender issues annoy me quite a lot. Still. Fun and the episodes are short enough that I can use them as a mini-break in between studying.

Ooh, and my Foo has given me the details of a Professor in the USA who studies some of the same field as me who might be able to give me advice about the next educational step, so that's exciting!

Oh, and I just got my marks back for last sem. All I'll say is that I am very happy.

Enough for now.

Peeji over and out!

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Getting lost in paper and dreams

I'm having one of those days where I just feel a general pissed-off-ness with nothing in particular. I think it's just because I'm really busy and I have been all holidays. I haven't had a chance to get anything really done, and semester is about to start again and then I'll be even busier than before. Which sucks, because there are things like emails, and writing, and reading (both for fun and thesis), and catching up with people that I just haven't had a chance to do.

However, in an attempt to take some control over my life, I've made up a plan for July to make sure that my priorities don't get submerged in the rat-race. Particularly writing. Because I don't have any specific deadlines, like a lot of amateur writers, I think, it's so easy to just say, 'oh, I'll get around to that later' but I don't have TIME to say that if I hope to get this TV show off to a producer before the end of the year. ANYWAY, I've got a daily writing target like for mini NaNoWriMo and trying to stick to it. Wish me luck! I've spent some time on Dry My Tears as well, this week. In an ideal world I'd like to finish that before the end of the year as well.

In other news, I've been roped into helping out with Dr Sketchy's Christchurch. Which is going to be a lot of work, (already is!) but has been a lot of fun. So if anyone around here is in the 'hood, come check it out!

So many awesome Big Bangs this year! I may post a list of some of my favs, later, but I've barely had the chance to read this week! Last week I was up north delivering a PUPPY to my Dad. (OH YES, I WIN!) I'll post a piccy when I'm home.

Okay, now I feel less guilty about not posting for ages. My brother gave me 55 new albums of music when I was in Wellington so I may have some music recs soon, too.

Love love, everyone!

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I can has new layout

I'm really super tired right now, but I has new layout, yay!

Right now the alignment is bung, but I can't be bothered trying to fix it before I get home.

Today I've been hit really hard with a massive wave of depression. Hopefully it will be gone gone gone tomorrow.

I have an exam in two days that my spaced-out mind hasn't really allowed me to prepare for properly, but I'm workin on that.

Note to fandom at large: She's apologised, move on. If someone has the grace to make a mistake and then acknowledge it and apologise, stop attacking them coz this isn't 'the man' or something, this is one of us. Learning from your mistakes is the most important part of growing, and fandom should foster that, not turn it to poison. It's like that discussion ages ago where a lot of people were like, 'you know what? I'm racist at times. I don't mean to be, and I don't like to be, but I am.' I always admired the people who could admit that. This girl obviously has a massive blind spot to the ways in which her story can be hurtful. That's sad, but now that she's seen the problem, can't we be less with the jabbing and the painful words? She's kinda stupid for not seeing what is obvious to a lot of people, but not everyone had the benefit of the education and social awareness that many in this fandom have. No one's perfect, and the fact that she's making a sincere effort to mitigate the damage, in my opinion, means a lot.

In other news, I got a haircut! I think I was hoping it would knock me out of my funk, but I'm not totally sold on it and I am more funk'd than before. Sigh.

I'm gonna go off and be depressed somewhere else so I don't share the emo around!

For the record, until I can be arsed changing my profile page details, layout by

scholarslayouts.

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awwww

I can't help the little part of my heart that is breaking but mostly I'm REALLY GLAD for these two:

I'm sure there will be plenty of squealing about the J's and hugging and pics and stuff, but I was seized by the need to post this pic because HOW CREEPY do they look here? I saw this and went, That's Barbie and Ken! Look at them and their perfectness? I feel like something has changed about Danneel's face in the last year or so and I barely recognise her now. Is it just me? If so, feel free to ignore. If she's put on some weight then I fully support it because that girl is thin.

Anyway, mostly YAY WEDDINGS! Though I do really want to write more of my Gen/Danneel fic. It is hawt. (if I do say so myself)

In other news I've been really badly sick. And semester is finishing in a week and a bit so I'm really busy and really emotionally fucked because I haven't really slept properly for about two weeks. :/

Carry on!

(pic nabbed from here via x5vale@LJ)

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Supernatural Fic - Never Stop Looking for You in the Night

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Little engine that coud

Good things:

I've just got to make it through today and assignment 6 and 7 of the seven due in the last five days will be done and I can maybe stop wandering around with this startled-hen look on my face.
(Of course, then I will have to catch up on 5 books and 4,000 words of writing I've been NOT doing due to said 7 assignments, but hey, SO NOT THE POINT!)

Glee club tonight. (Yes, I've joined a Glee Club, and no, it's not lame and full of weirdos, it's AWESOME and full of AWESOME AND SCARY-CRAZY PEOPLE.)

I've done at least half of a 5x22 coda. I think it doesn't suck, too.

I watched Star Trek last night AGAIN. (This is about the 7th time, I think.) And yes, it is STILL AWESOME.

I bought the game Jeanne d'Arc to go towards my research and it's SUPER FUN and really addictive. ^_^ Really good thing to have to do before bed because I can't read fic when I've been staring at words for about 12 hours solid.

Less good things:

My Sammessiah fic needs some work, it's a bit average. :/

From next week I have to start recruiting participants for my research. Which means I need to power through these damn video games and I DO NOT HAVE TIME. >:[

I need to get my shit together and start making some serious plans about where I'm going once I've finished honors. This is scary because I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO and I have no idea who to ASK because none of the lecturers here know anything about Japan, and the only Japanese lecturer who WOULD have been helpful has LEFT. Wah. :(

Um, to end on a positive note..... My kitty is adorable, YAY!

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Spn 5x22 reaction

( Supernatural 5x22 )

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Spn 5x21 ep reaction

( Spn 5x21 reaction in brief )

Oh, also, I wrote fic for the antichristmas commentfic thing over at

sammessiah but I'm not posting it yet coz I've learnt my lesson about posting right on top of a new episode. I'll post on Monday. (But yaaaaaay fic!)

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Academic-mind, ACTIVATE!

No time for slacking! I've got 15 mins to write half an essay!

Today I watched 40 Priests vs Onyxia and, 40 Paladins Vs 40 Shaman, just coz I could. (Actually, the girl next to me in the Lab was watching it and then it turned into a very academic discussion with several other people of the addiction of WoW.) Now I have to go to a class where I have to figure out what to ask people about what they thought of certain religious elements in specific video games. Or something.... stupid research.

In other news, Autumn is awesome and beautiful. And I have no time. AH! WHEEE! (This post was brought to you by apparently nothing at all, have a nice day.)

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This icon is me, right now.

Willow summarises me perfectly. I have been sick now for almost two weeks. This stupid half-sickness that keeps me feeling like shit enough that I don't want to do anything but not shit enough that I can't, so I keep rushing around being the busy busy beaver that I am, and not getting enough sleep and generally stressing so I keep NOT getting better! I just biked to uni on a LOWER gear than I normally do and I nearly DIED. I think I'm gonna leave my bike here and bus home. Man. Uhg.

Meanwhile, I have a research proposal and an ethics approval request to have in by the 14th, and a 3,000 word essay AND a 3-hour presentation to write by the 17th. Plus an artistic performance to photograph on the 15th, and I do NOT have time to be sick!

In other news, Iron Man was cool. And I haven't even watched Spn yet, that's how busy my weekend was. (wah wah wah poor me, I know)

This post needs something positive. HERE HAVE A PUPPY!

My Dad sent my this image coz he's thinking about getting a puppeh since our dog died last month. I THINK HE SHOULD GET ONE, WHAT DO YOU THINK!?

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Sweeet relieeef~

Just got my first essay back for the semester, I have been having NIGHTMARES about this essay it was SO BAD. It was a complete MESS. The ideas were alright but I patched it all together like a plastic surgery failure. I thought I would get a B or something. Ugh. But, I got an A-! YAAAAY! Soooo relieved you have no idea! (NIGHTMARES! NO JOKE!) Which gives me hope that the NEXT essay, which is due in 2 weeks, if I don't turn into a massive spaz, might even get an A.

I'm not normally the type that worries at all about grades, when I was in first year I was just happy to PASS, however now that I'm doing post-grad your chances of getting scholarships really is hugely affected by your GPA and mine just... hasn't been the best. So the goal is to get first-class honors so that I can use THAT to get masters scholarships. As such I need to be getting a minimum of A-, but I'm aiming for A/A+ so that if I drop the ball here or there the average will still be alright.

Anyway, that's probably not very interesting to anyone but me but I'm SO RELIEVED I had to post. The postyness overcame me.

In other thesis news I've got to play all kinds of really weird and interesting games lately. Spacewar! is one of the first video games ever made. (it wasn't even on a PC, it was on some crazy computing machine that they had before then!) It's fun, go try it! Hunt the Wumpus was also a very early text-based game (that's a picture-based version, but you get the general idea) that came out way back when. It's really interesting looking at how games have evolved, and reading stuff about Japan as a fantasy-space for the West. I love my research so hard right now I'm gonna shut up. :D

In other news, I'm sick with a never-ending cold at the moment and if you haven't read it and are looking for a good fantasy book, The Mistborn series by Brandon Sanderson is definitely worth reading.

Oooo, oooo, just to make this post more media-filled, anyone who hasn't played Robot Unicorn Attack should go do it now, most entertaining thing to play when you've been trying to theorise for hours ever.

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supernatural ep reactions

Supernatural 5x19 episode reaction

I wasn't going to say anything about tonight, ( coz )

Got 900 words done on my Literature Review today for Uni. I had to read 18 SOURCES FOR IT! 18!!! But now I just have to ramble for a bit and I'll be done. MAN I am overworked at the moment, and have been sick 4 days so-far this week, but eh, no time to complain just gotta WORK!

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