It lives?

[prairie_grass]

Kind of.

Hi all, sorry that I've disappeared completely over the last year couple of months. I'm home sick from work today which is the only real reason I have time for this entry today, but because I'm sick I'm pretty tired, so I'll try keep it short.

Where I've been:

-Mostly work. Been working 40-60 hour weeks, which isn't the end of the world for some people, I guess, but I'm not used to it at all, so I just have NO ENERGY at the end of the day. None. Whatsoever. I haven't even been reading, I just come home and refresh facebook a few times then sleep. Also I have two hour-long commutes on top of 9-hour shifts so there isn't really any time, quite apart from the tiredness.

-Family. My parents announced mid-December that they (dad) had decided they should definitely split up. So. Um. Yeah. Things have been pretty stressful and busy on that front. My mum has moved down here for the time being, staying with her sister, but since they've been married for 36 years, and she's never been independent, there's kind of a massive learning curve for her. So any time I'm not at work I'm usually helping her out with things like opening her own bank account and all this... CRAP that... anyway, I'm not going to get into the emotional side of it, it's just a huge time and energy suck right now.

-Other people. On the maybe two nights a week I'm not at work or with Mum or sleeping I try to schedule in my poor boyfriend (he's earned the word now, mostly... on the days it doesn't freak me out,) or one of those weird people that think I have time to be their friend. Silly, silly people.

That's about it. I'm really tired. I have another month before uni starts and oh MAN I'm looking forward to it. And to think I thought I would have MORE time in the holidays. After mininano I haven't done really any writing these holidays.

BUT

I have been working on Dry My Tears over the last few weeks. (!!!)

I gotta go lie down, but I just want to say sorry to the world for turning into a ghost lately, can't guarantee non-ghostlikeness for the rest of the month, but I'm trying my best. :)

As always, love love!

Comments

[mimei.livejournal.com]

40 hours is way enough for me. 60 hours is working like a japanese person and i'd only do it for a LOT of money. (my paycheque this month was about 10 NZD/hour. i could make more money working any minimum wage job in NZ. fml.) anyway, i know i say this ALL THE TIME but please look after yourself. ily ♥

i miss you :( come back to meeee :(

[prairie-grass.livejournal.com]

I agree. Way too much. Also my boss seems to think a half-day equates a full day off, and if she only gives me one other day in the week off then I'm not allowed to complain. I mean, she's a lovely person, but it doesn't take a genius to know that normal people don't get up at 6am on a day OFF.

What the hell is with that paycheque? I thought ALTs got paid well!

I'm trying! I really am! *clings*

[mimei.livejournal.com]

wow, that's fucked up. i just want you to be healthy and happy and i mean, money is great too but for me there are things i don't want to sacrifice for a job, unless the job is something really really important, like saving the whales or helping people in Haiti, and therefore my job is my life. unfortunately, japan completely disagrees with this way of thinking.

JETs get paid well, and a huge lot of fringe benefits besides. anyone working for a private company in Japan - ALTs and Eikaiwa staff (English Conversation school teachers) get paid shit wages with shit conditions (i don't even get paid leave until i've worked here 6 months).

*holds onto* i have a bit of a migraine. i hate my life :(

[mimei.livejournal.com]

oh yeah, unless you work as a hostess; i think you can make a lot at that.

[prairie-grass.livejournal.com]

Oh oh, and check out this there's a hungry caterpillar icon there that reminded me so of yoooou.

[mimei.livejournal.com]

i am a very hungry caterpillar. just ate a huge load of vegan banana pancakes :(

[foolazuli.livejournal.com]

Wow, sounds crazy busy
I thought I had it rough these past two weeks but that's just two weeks and I've got nothing on you.
I won't even threaten to make your already crazy bust life more crazy but I'm getting internet next week (nock on wood) so we should chat when you are back in school and have relatively more time.