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prairie_grass) wrote2007-09-07 12:57 am
prairie_grass) wrote2007-09-07 12:57 am
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Learning to Swim
Okay, just a quick fly-by note again. I may update with something more conversational later, but for now I have no time despite LJ calling.
Life, kicks my ass, with big steel-capped boots. Not asking for a pity-party or anything here, but SHEESH! How much crap can be packed into one year? I don't know, I don't WANT to know. What I do know is that it's a lot more than I thought it would be. To explain this bitching a tad, last term went something like this:
Weeks 1-2: "Whheeeeeeeee! I love being at uni so much!! ...Holy CRAP my workload is insane this semester... ARG! Stressing about flats! >:["
Week 3: "Yay Uni! Oh! Ah! (<- not sex noises) Flat! WAH! Moving is mega hassle! Stressszzz. [pause] *looks at schedule* ........Excuse me? I have only 3 weeks left of term and HOW MANY assignments/tests/essays????!!?? PANIC-DESU!"
Week 4: "Okay, must focus on working, ah, my life is crazy, wtf, okay, focus, yes hah..." My Boss - "So, do you want to work more than twice your normal shifts for the next 3 weeks?" Me - "Oh.. um, money is really good when you're in as much debt as I am and I'm being all focus-y on my workload, so I _should_ be able to manage, so um, yesss?" (<- I am very stupid.)
Week 5: "AH! FLAIL! *procrastinates* ... *misses classes due to flailage* Panic panIC PANIC PANIC PANIC!
Week 6: Universe - "Hmm, she thinks that the shit has already hiteth the fan. Hah, Hah. HAHAHAHAHAHA! *curses*" Me - "Ack!" *gets virus of DOOM* *tries to keep going anyway* *gets bronchitis as WELL as virus of doom* *f(l)ails* Essays/tests/assignments are done/not done to varying degrees or suckdom. Work is VERY annoyed with me.
Week 7: (holidays) "Oh bloody hell. I HATE YOU, UNIVERSE!!!" *tries to catch up on essays. fails. submits one of two two days late, ignores the other altogether as a lost-cause.* Universe - *laughs* Me - *gives up and sleeps for several days*
Week 8: (now, still holidays) "I would like to register a complaint or something here, people," *eyes Burn to Shine and DMTs forlornly* *picks up homework* "Sighhhh" panic panic. Sensei - "So, I haven't received your aegrotat from the registry yet..." Me - ".......... I don't even know why I bother, seriously people. Seriously." *ignores life and spends day walking through the botanical gardens with friend checking out the daffodils.* *comes home and regrets this, cracks open the study study study study.*
Le sigh.
So yeah. Me being not around has some basis in reality, not just me being depressed and antisocial. (Although there's that, too.) I really miss everyone. I miss the fandom. And MAN, I REALLY miss writing. So. Fucking. Much. Yeah, depending on how much of this amazing shittiness that seems to magically appear from nowhere gets piled on me next term, I'm hoping to have some more time for writing as I get myself a bit more organised. We'll see, ne?
Also, is it just me being all slashy and strange, but did it seem to anyone else that JKR was deliberately writing DH so you could do a re-write with a big secret love-love with Harry and Draco? I mean, it was INFURIATING the way she kept ALMOST including Draco into the story and then she just KEPT letting him slip away. I mean, seriously, there was so much unexplained shit, subtext and UNDER DEVELOPED character development that it was PAINFUL. Gah! By the end I just wanted to HIT her. (not that I didn't love the book, coz I did) She just completely let down the Slytherins, but even then, every time I was like, "Oh, okay, she's decided to make them a caricature of 'baddies' and doesn't want to develop them," she'd do something like getting Draco to LIE about the identity of Harry and Co. for NO GOOD REASON and then she WOULDN'T explain it and the next thing we know Draco is trying to KILL Harry!???? WHAT. THE. FUCK!?!? I honestly felt the only way as an author you could explain her treatment of Draco was if there was piles of subtext and side-story that we weren't seeing. Because, it just made no sense. >:( As such, because my brain is a very slashy place, I took that nod in the epilogue to be, "Hey Potter, who I have a semi-secret, deeply emotional connection/relationship with which has caused us much joy and grief over the last 19 years [or whatever the time was, I don't have my copy on me at the moment] which Ginny is fully aware of because she and Harry are more best friends than lovers and ... and... AND THIS IS THE ONLY WAY THIS CAN BE EXPLAINED!!!"
So yeah. That my two cents. I don't have the time or inclination but could someone tell me that someone is, has, or is going to write the re-write of Hallows with the slash and angst put in right where it is so obviously needed!?!? Because, because, it NEEDS TO BE THERE!
*coughs*
Ah... yeeeeah, anyway...
Also quick comment about the whole child-porn debacle:
1. Whoever pointed out that child pornography is illegal because in its pure (okay, really, really bad word choice there... sorry,) form it takes advantage of actual children is %100 right, in my opinion. Fictional depiction of children shouldn't be considered illegal when it doesn't actually harm anyone.
2. I think LJ/6A is perfectly within their rights to ban things from their sites, however, they should have done so with a big, fat, clear warning before they did so and definitely should have given the boldthrough people the opportunity to take down the work before banning them.
3. Just to make it clear to everyone, (because one thing that I've noticed about this whole thing is there really seem to be some people out there who think that people who include child porn or rape etc in their work, written or drawn, actually think that that sort of thing is good/okay in real life,) I will be adding disclaimers to all my underage (by american standards) stuff, especially the non-con stuff (i.e. DMTs) to explain my standpoint that I don't accept child abuse of real children in any shape or form, but just as I think heaps of people have had a rape fantasy/dream at some point in their life, which didn't mean they really wanted to be raped or to rape anyone, I think it doesn't do any harm to indulge these fantasies in a safe environment and I would never, ever accept any form of abuse by anyone in real life.
4. I'm not going anywhere. Not just yet, anyway. It seems that LJ doesn't have any plans to kick the written work any time soon (I daresay they're aiming for something like skyehawke's policy which bans stuff that has no point beyond the porn, and the glorification of said porn, even if they're fuddling about on what they're actually trying to say,) and it would take too much effort to move when I have no time at the moment. However, I've got my eye on things and I'm ready to throw everything into my bags and flee if LJ keeps being assholes. I will make sure everyone's aware of my shift, though.
5. If something crazy happens and I do get kicked before I have a back-up site somewhere, remember that all my fiction is over at skyehawke, and if you want to link back into my journally-ness once I've re-sorted everything, please email me and I'll make sure you know where I am! (my skyehawke account and my email are both on my profile page).
...Holy crap, that wasn't really a short update after all, was it? *looks sheepish* It's reeeeeally late now and I gotta go to bed before insuring that working tomorrow will be total torture, but I'm glad I was able to get some of this stuff out there.
(Oh and, Hi to all the people who have friended me lately. It never fails to amaze me. Welcome aboard. ^_^)
Hope everyone is good! Let me know the Goss! Laterz dudes and dudettes!
Page out!
Life, kicks my ass, with big steel-capped boots. Not asking for a pity-party or anything here, but SHEESH! How much crap can be packed into one year? I don't know, I don't WANT to know. What I do know is that it's a lot more than I thought it would be. To explain this bitching a tad, last term went something like this:
Weeks 1-2: "Whheeeeeeeee! I love being at uni so much!! ...Holy CRAP my workload is insane this semester... ARG! Stressing about flats! >:["
Week 3: "Yay Uni! Oh! Ah! (<- not sex noises) Flat! WAH! Moving is mega hassle! Stressszzz. [pause] *looks at schedule* ........Excuse me? I have only 3 weeks left of term and HOW MANY assignments/tests/essays????!!?? PANIC-DESU!"
Week 4: "Okay, must focus on working, ah, my life is crazy, wtf, okay, focus, yes hah..." My Boss - "So, do you want to work more than twice your normal shifts for the next 3 weeks?" Me - "Oh.. um, money is really good when you're in as much debt as I am and I'm being all focus-y on my workload, so I _should_ be able to manage, so um, yesss?" (<- I am very stupid.)
Week 5: "AH! FLAIL! *procrastinates* ... *misses classes due to flailage* Panic panIC PANIC PANIC PANIC!
Week 6: Universe - "Hmm, she thinks that the shit has already hiteth the fan. Hah, Hah. HAHAHAHAHAHA! *curses*" Me - "Ack!" *gets virus of DOOM* *tries to keep going anyway* *gets bronchitis as WELL as virus of doom* *f(l)ails* Essays/tests/assignments are done/not done to varying degrees or suckdom. Work is VERY annoyed with me.
Week 7: (holidays) "Oh bloody hell. I HATE YOU, UNIVERSE!!!" *tries to catch up on essays. fails. submits one of two two days late, ignores the other altogether as a lost-cause.* Universe - *laughs* Me - *gives up and sleeps for several days*
Week 8: (now, still holidays) "I would like to register a complaint or something here, people," *eyes Burn to Shine and DMTs forlornly* *picks up homework* "Sighhhh" panic panic. Sensei - "So, I haven't received your aegrotat from the registry yet..." Me - ".......... I don't even know why I bother, seriously people. Seriously." *ignores life and spends day walking through the botanical gardens with friend checking out the daffodils.* *comes home and regrets this, cracks open the study study study study.*
Le sigh.
So yeah. Me being not around has some basis in reality, not just me being depressed and antisocial. (Although there's that, too.) I really miss everyone. I miss the fandom. And MAN, I REALLY miss writing. So. Fucking. Much. Yeah, depending on how much of this amazing shittiness that seems to magically appear from nowhere gets piled on me next term, I'm hoping to have some more time for writing as I get myself a bit more organised. We'll see, ne?
Also, is it just me being all slashy and strange, but did it seem to anyone else that JKR was deliberately writing DH so you could do a re-write with a big secret love-love with Harry and Draco? I mean, it was INFURIATING the way she kept ALMOST including Draco into the story and then she just KEPT letting him slip away. I mean, seriously, there was so much unexplained shit, subtext and UNDER DEVELOPED character development that it was PAINFUL. Gah! By the end I just wanted to HIT her. (not that I didn't love the book, coz I did) She just completely let down the Slytherins, but even then, every time I was like, "Oh, okay, she's decided to make them a caricature of 'baddies' and doesn't want to develop them," she'd do something like getting Draco to LIE about the identity of Harry and Co. for NO GOOD REASON and then she WOULDN'T explain it and the next thing we know Draco is trying to KILL Harry!???? WHAT. THE. FUCK!?!? I honestly felt the only way as an author you could explain her treatment of Draco was if there was piles of subtext and side-story that we weren't seeing. Because, it just made no sense. >:( As such, because my brain is a very slashy place, I took that nod in the epilogue to be, "Hey Potter, who I have a semi-secret, deeply emotional connection/relationship with which has caused us much joy and grief over the last 19 years [or whatever the time was, I don't have my copy on me at the moment] which Ginny is fully aware of because she and Harry are more best friends than lovers and ... and... AND THIS IS THE ONLY WAY THIS CAN BE EXPLAINED!!!"
So yeah. That my two cents. I don't have the time or inclination but could someone tell me that someone is, has, or is going to write the re-write of Hallows with the slash and angst put in right where it is so obviously needed!?!? Because, because, it NEEDS TO BE THERE!
*coughs*
Ah... yeeeeah, anyway...
Also quick comment about the whole child-porn debacle:
1. Whoever pointed out that child pornography is illegal because in its pure (okay, really, really bad word choice there... sorry,) form it takes advantage of actual children is %100 right, in my opinion. Fictional depiction of children shouldn't be considered illegal when it doesn't actually harm anyone.
2. I think LJ/6A is perfectly within their rights to ban things from their sites, however, they should have done so with a big, fat, clear warning before they did so and definitely should have given the boldthrough people the opportunity to take down the work before banning them.
3. Just to make it clear to everyone, (because one thing that I've noticed about this whole thing is there really seem to be some people out there who think that people who include child porn or rape etc in their work, written or drawn, actually think that that sort of thing is good/okay in real life,) I will be adding disclaimers to all my underage (by american standards) stuff, especially the non-con stuff (i.e. DMTs) to explain my standpoint that I don't accept child abuse of real children in any shape or form, but just as I think heaps of people have had a rape fantasy/dream at some point in their life, which didn't mean they really wanted to be raped or to rape anyone, I think it doesn't do any harm to indulge these fantasies in a safe environment and I would never, ever accept any form of abuse by anyone in real life.
4. I'm not going anywhere. Not just yet, anyway. It seems that LJ doesn't have any plans to kick the written work any time soon (I daresay they're aiming for something like skyehawke's policy which bans stuff that has no point beyond the porn, and the glorification of said porn, even if they're fuddling about on what they're actually trying to say,) and it would take too much effort to move when I have no time at the moment. However, I've got my eye on things and I'm ready to throw everything into my bags and flee if LJ keeps being assholes. I will make sure everyone's aware of my shift, though.
5. If something crazy happens and I do get kicked before I have a back-up site somewhere, remember that all my fiction is over at skyehawke, and if you want to link back into my journally-ness once I've re-sorted everything, please email me and I'll make sure you know where I am! (my skyehawke account and my email are both on my profile page).
...Holy crap, that wasn't really a short update after all, was it? *looks sheepish* It's reeeeeally late now and I gotta go to bed before insuring that working tomorrow will be total torture, but I'm glad I was able to get some of this stuff out there.
(Oh and, Hi to all the people who have friended me lately. It never fails to amaze me. Welcome aboard. ^_^)
Hope everyone is good! Let me know the Goss! Laterz dudes and dudettes!
Page out!