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prairie_grass) wrote2010-08-30 12:16 pm
prairie_grass) wrote2010-08-30 12:16 pm
An update on nearly everything.
Hi all. Long time no post, I know. Post-graduate work is not always fun!
So! Let me update you on my so-interesting life, yes?
1. I went to a party last night and FLIPPED OUT. Seriously, the closest I've been to a full-blown panic attack in ages. The Boyfriend was awesome and super-nice and took me home even though we'd only just got there, and he was really looking forward to the free food. I felt like such an awful party-pooper, but so glad when I got home to be able to snuggle up on the couch and remind myself I didn't have to go outside again until it was DAYTIME! YAY! I think the stress of Honours is feeding into the mild agoraphobia I'm pretty sure I have. :/ Going out at night has very suddenly got much much harder in the last few weeks. This does happen to me from time to time, but not as badly as it did last night. So. In some ways I don't really mind. I'd rather be socially crippled than physically, in terms of where the stress is going, because at least I can still work on thesis when I'm freaking out and hiding in my room rather than sick! I'm deciding not to worry about it, because I'm pretty sure it will get better once the pressure of this year is lower. *nods firmly*
2. Wrote the synopsis to an entire original fic last week. Woo. Full-on. It's very very weird, so if I ever got around to writing it it would only be for online. No publisher would go near it! *laughs* Still, it was fun to see that my creative-brain is still operating in there somewhere, even when it's been smothered by a million essays and what-not this month. Other writing projects are being prodded-at later this week, I hope, depending on my progress with MORE essays. ;_;
3. SPN! New season starting in what, three weeks now? I had a S5 coda half-written, so I might try push that into shape this week, otherwise it'll get eated! I'm SO nervous and also excited for this new season! Very mildly spoiled, and it doesn't SOUND like it's going to be shit, so we'll see.
4. I've been keeping a food-diary to hopefully sort out the digestive problems I've been having lately. Good GRIEF it's a frightening experience to see all your bad eating-choices permanently inscribed on paper in front of you. I bought VEGETABLES at the supermarket this week. LOTS of them. @_@ I also printed out the better pain-chart to put at the front so the doctor can refer to it. Hyperbole and a Half has recently changed my entire world.
5. I bought a new computer! Did I say that here? *checks* No! I didn't! I haven't updated in SO LONG! She's called Isabella (not a Twilight reference) and is very very pretty and very very nice to me, and has a remote, so I've been zombie-ing out to Naruto in the evenings and it's AWESOME because I don't even have to get up to load a new episode. BUT, now I have NO MONEY so I can't afford to buy Star Craft II, which is why I bought her in the first place, (there were other reasons, too, but that sounds more geekily dramatic,) which I think is HILARIOUS.
6. I've been invited to do my MA at Washington University! Which is so fucking cool! But also so incredibly never going to happen because it costs 50,000 USD a YEAR for me to study there. Hahahahahahhaha. But so awesome to be invited. Sigh.
7. RE #6 - I had this really odd conversation with the BF yesterday where we basically talked about how the hell we're going to stay together next year with me probably flying off to another country and him probably starting Masters here. :( I had kind of been ignoring the fact that I have a BF when planning the next stage of life, because a friend recommended it as a way of toning down my life-complications, and also because I kinda didn't think we would last this long. But we have and things are good only getting better, which is GREAT, but also really a :( moment when approaching next year. For now though, I'm going to keep ignoring the problem. *sticks fingers in ears* lalalala~!
I think that's enough of me talking. We all agree? Yes? Okay. Ta ta for now.
So! Let me update you on my so-interesting life, yes?
1. I went to a party last night and FLIPPED OUT. Seriously, the closest I've been to a full-blown panic attack in ages. The Boyfriend was awesome and super-nice and took me home even though we'd only just got there, and he was really looking forward to the free food. I felt like such an awful party-pooper, but so glad when I got home to be able to snuggle up on the couch and remind myself I didn't have to go outside again until it was DAYTIME! YAY! I think the stress of Honours is feeding into the mild agoraphobia I'm pretty sure I have. :/ Going out at night has very suddenly got much much harder in the last few weeks. This does happen to me from time to time, but not as badly as it did last night. So. In some ways I don't really mind. I'd rather be socially crippled than physically, in terms of where the stress is going, because at least I can still work on thesis when I'm freaking out and hiding in my room rather than sick! I'm deciding not to worry about it, because I'm pretty sure it will get better once the pressure of this year is lower. *nods firmly*
2. Wrote the synopsis to an entire original fic last week. Woo. Full-on. It's very very weird, so if I ever got around to writing it it would only be for online. No publisher would go near it! *laughs* Still, it was fun to see that my creative-brain is still operating in there somewhere, even when it's been smothered by a million essays and what-not this month. Other writing projects are being prodded-at later this week, I hope, depending on my progress with MORE essays. ;_;
3. SPN! New season starting in what, three weeks now? I had a S5 coda half-written, so I might try push that into shape this week, otherwise it'll get eated! I'm SO nervous and also excited for this new season! Very mildly spoiled, and it doesn't SOUND like it's going to be shit, so we'll see.
4. I've been keeping a food-diary to hopefully sort out the digestive problems I've been having lately. Good GRIEF it's a frightening experience to see all your bad eating-choices permanently inscribed on paper in front of you. I bought VEGETABLES at the supermarket this week. LOTS of them. @_@ I also printed out the better pain-chart to put at the front so the doctor can refer to it. Hyperbole and a Half has recently changed my entire world.
5. I bought a new computer! Did I say that here? *checks* No! I didn't! I haven't updated in SO LONG! She's called Isabella (not a Twilight reference) and is very very pretty and very very nice to me, and has a remote, so I've been zombie-ing out to Naruto in the evenings and it's AWESOME because I don't even have to get up to load a new episode. BUT, now I have NO MONEY so I can't afford to buy Star Craft II, which is why I bought her in the first place, (there were other reasons, too, but that sounds more geekily dramatic,) which I think is HILARIOUS.
6. I've been invited to do my MA at Washington University! Which is so fucking cool! But also so incredibly never going to happen because it costs 50,000 USD a YEAR for me to study there. Hahahahahahhaha. But so awesome to be invited. Sigh.
7. RE #6 - I had this really odd conversation with the BF yesterday where we basically talked about how the hell we're going to stay together next year with me probably flying off to another country and him probably starting Masters here. :( I had kind of been ignoring the fact that I have a BF when planning the next stage of life, because a friend recommended it as a way of toning down my life-complications, and also because I kinda didn't think we would last this long. But we have and things are good only getting better, which is GREAT, but also really a :( moment when approaching next year. For now though, I'm going to keep ignoring the problem. *sticks fingers in ears* lalalala~!
I think that's enough of me talking. We all agree? Yes? Okay. Ta ta for now.
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I KNOW! I WAS SO FUCKING FLIPPING OUT WITH EXCITEMENT. And then I crashed coz it's really unlikely. The lady who wants to supervise me wants to have a chat, and I guess she MIGHT be able to sort something out funding-wise, but I've looked into several options and it's going to be a real mission. :/
I haven't finished applying for JET! I've filled out a lot of the application but I was sort-of derailed by this Washington thing. The lady over there doesn't really recommend JET for learning the language, but the only other option is to do a learning to speak Japanese course in Japan, and again, COSTS MONEH. Eh. I've become overwhelmed!
You're right, I shouldn't ignore it. But, gah. I dunno. I won't be leaving for almost another year, yet, and I feel like by then we'll know if we're going long-haul or not, but I have to make decisions NOW about what I should do next. He's kind of implied that he can move around wherever I go if I end up moving to another uni within NZ, but it's another whole story if I go overseas. WAH! I don't know, I guess we'll just have to talk about it more seriously once I have a better idea of what's actually going to happen? And your opinion is still valid! Thank you!
*collapses in fail* Wah. I suck at being interesting now. All I talk about it stupid uni. I'm not DOING anything else interesting! Please still be my friend even though I am lame and boring? I HAVE watched many of your videos! In fact most of them! I think I missed a couple of the recent ones - the one you did in Japanese didn't work on my computer coz I ran out of internet at uni. I feel bad coz I don't have a YouTube account so I can't give you good thumbs! This last one was ADORABLE. Look at you being all CUTE. *pinches cheeks* And I HEAR that American accent creeping in, MISSY! (Who are all the people watching it?? You should post more rants with the name of bands in the title and become a GURU of YouTube!)
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yeah, well...i mean JET is complete immersion, so you will learn the language more quickly, but at language school you will learn more thoroughly. but then again, people who get into JET often get the govt scholarships when they go back for post-grad. i'd love to go to a japanese school here but...yeah, full time would be impossible and my hours are too long really for part time.
well my coworker, Joe, followed his gf (who's on JET) to Japan...but again i think they'd been together a bit longer (soooo jealous of his devotion though, seriously).
n/o but yeah, i think uni has swallowed you whole. i guess i can still be your friend, since you watched my videos :p i was being cute? lol. it's funny i've only learnt the american accent since being in japan...all our materials are american english (well, most) and it's easier for the kids to understand. (apparently snsd fans, lol, idek. i probably should. i was invited to submit that video for the partner program by YT, so i might actually make money. people do this AS A LIVING, and since it's something i'm really passionate about....well, just a pipe dream, but yeah.)