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prairie_grass) wrote2010-03-02 11:16 pm
prairie_grass) wrote2010-03-02 11:16 pm
Save me from my ambitions
Hi all. Long time no post. I think no one is surprised by now, so lets just skip the gnashing of teeth and move on.
In news of Life of Peeji, I'm in my last week of Working Too Much at my workplace, and just starting my second week of Working Too Much at uni.
I spent 6 HOURS today researching video game titles for use in my honours thesis.
6 HOURS
I'm going to hate myself by the end of this, seriously. Will NEVER be able to play video games again. (but right now, I'm just really excited and can't believe I'm allowed to do this as an academic pursuit.)
I'm thrilled, I gotta say, to finally be doing post-grad. I feel like a fraud, and that any moment someone will point and say, 'You don't belong here!' I'm just so grateful that I've made it this far and I hope I can do well.
Also, doing research on video games? EXPENSIVE. @_@
I'm going to have no life at all this year. It's going to be awesome. Two of the girls doing post-grad Anth are also massive geeks like me. They helped me search for titles this afternoon because they were bored. *beams*
I miss writing right now, but there just isn't any time. Maybe once I've got into a routine. Right now I'm trying to pack 40 hours of study into three days a week and there just is. no. time. Writing is never forgotten for me, though.
Anyway, I gotta get some sleep. Just wanted to say hi to the outside world.
P.S. Jared just got married and even though I'm so happy for him, and not even Jared obsessed, a little part of me was all sad yesterday. ^_^;;
In news of Life of Peeji, I'm in my last week of Working Too Much at my workplace, and just starting my second week of Working Too Much at uni.
I spent 6 HOURS today researching video game titles for use in my honours thesis.
6 HOURS
I'm going to hate myself by the end of this, seriously. Will NEVER be able to play video games again. (but right now, I'm just really excited and can't believe I'm allowed to do this as an academic pursuit.)
I'm thrilled, I gotta say, to finally be doing post-grad. I feel like a fraud, and that any moment someone will point and say, 'You don't belong here!' I'm just so grateful that I've made it this far and I hope I can do well.
Also, doing research on video games? EXPENSIVE. @_@
I'm going to have no life at all this year. It's going to be awesome. Two of the girls doing post-grad Anth are also massive geeks like me. They helped me search for titles this afternoon because they were bored. *beams*
I miss writing right now, but there just isn't any time. Maybe once I've got into a routine. Right now I'm trying to pack 40 hours of study into three days a week and there just is. no. time. Writing is never forgotten for me, though.
Anyway, I gotta get some sleep. Just wanted to say hi to the outside world.
P.S. Jared just got married and even though I'm so happy for him, and not even Jared obsessed, a little part of me was all sad yesterday. ^_^;;
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i'd love the low-down on your thesis. last i heard you were going to study japan?
i'm planning on post-grad sometime next year. if i can stand losing a full-time salary and stuff.
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I will email you! Looking at Japanese video games.
Post grad is so gooooood. I feel like I'm finally allowed to look at the things I find interesting, and study things in depth, and suddenly the staff treat you like a human being. And most of the annoying people are gone. And I can live in the Grad Lab and avoid all life at uni for 90% of the day. I love it love it love it. (Will hate it once the workload has caught up with me, though.)
losing a full-time salary Yeah. Those are a killer. Good luck with that.
When do you hear back about the place you were interviewed for?
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okay :) looking forward to hearing about it.
sure sounds good *sigh*.
yeah i really wanted to pay off my student loan too, but i couldn't even make the repayment last year. it doesn't seem to matter how hard i work i'm fated to be poor. oh well, at least i have enough to eat and pay the bills and sometimes buy books. and possibly replace my broken ipod.
i hear back from them when the school wants to interview me which is honestly kinda weird. i had to take unpaid leave to interview with an eikaiwa next friday, so that's my back up. but if i get the eikaiwa job i don't know if i'll stay beyond august when my visa runs out. i just so don't know right now *in a bit of a rut*
i really don't understand why i go through life so fucking exhausted all the time. i seriously have no energy, and i know i'm depressed but...seriously :(