28 November 2012 @ 09:07 am
So... I may be kind of ridiculously excited about the fact that after lunch today I am heading down to the Hobbit red carpet.

I feel a little bit disorientated, like, I’m excited about Martin Freeman because of Sherlock, I’m excited about Elijah Wood because of LOTR, but I know next to nothing about all the dwarves and stuff. I’m off to see a fandom that I don’t have yet but probably will within the next few months!

Anyway, no idea if I’ll get anywhere near the red carpet by then, apparently a lot of people camped out overnight. I’ll post pics if I get any though!

Current Mood: excited
06 November 2012 @ 12:07 pm
Not sure if I can actually sustain working a 9-5 while dealing with anxiety issues and depression.

So, internets, a question:

Doing a Masters in Creative Writing at Victoria University... good idea or bad idea?
Current Mood: Potentially optimistic?
Current Location: Not at work. Coz work is too hard
Current Music: Young the Giant
21 September 2012 @ 04:39 pm
Somewhere, out there  
I know I'll be happy if I go out. I know I'll be happy if I go out. I know I'll be happy if I go out. I know I'll be happy if I go out.

I know I'll be happy if I go out.

But all I can think of right now is how much I love being at home, and how there's fanfic and teen wolf and tumblr and borderlands 2 at home, and how I've had the shittiest week ever.

And I don't want to go.

This happens every single time I have to go out. And even I'm sick of myself, but I just don't want to go.

Sometimes being an introvert sucks.
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Current Mood: frustrated
26 August 2012 @ 07:21 pm
Pedantic Panda  
I've discovered that in my old age I have become something of a pedantic arse. Hopefully my ability to laugh at myself prevents me from being that Annoying Guy who always needs to correct people on minor inaccuracies, but I think at times I come close.

In order to prevent this spiralling out of control into my visions of torch-welding villagers coming after me with pitchforks, I've decided to award myself +1 Friendship points whenever I hold my tongue instead of correcting someone.

This will be difficult for me, as there are so many people who are WRONG everywhere. If I do not fail miserably, I imagine I will level up extremely fast.

Working on Sekrit Projects this weekend...
Current Mood: determined
26 June 2012 @ 04:09 pm
Who do you think you are  
Well the last few weeks have been exceedingly weird.

Imagine walking into a new job. You get welcomed at reception. You are met by the person who interviewed you. You are shown around and meet a large number of people. The person who is showing you around explains embarrassedly that the person you are supposed to be working with that day has had to pull out.

Then follows two weeks of mostly sitting around with nothing to do. That's the simple version but in effect the large majority of the time I have nothing to do. Needless to say this experience is somewhat disconcerting.

On the plus side, some of my dissatisfaction must have shown in my face or something, because my boss floated last night the idea of me being moved into a different department, which would mean (hopefully) I actually have some work to do, so I'm pretty thrilled at that idea. Hopefully I'll have some confirmation in the next few days. Not that I'm getting my hopes up since it seems to have taken two weeks for them to even start to realise that they're the ones who are supposed to, you know, give me stuff to DO.

The plus side of all of this is that no one notices at all if I do some of the internet or writing while at work. I am hoping to condition myself into putting in an hour of writing every morning.

One of the guys in the team I'm working with has started talking in sentences made up almost entirely of acronyms due to a reaction to how many acronyms (actually usually initialisms - I just learnt the difference this week) we regularly use (we have a 16 page document to break them all down!) We also had the following conversation, (context is that my real name is a common Maori word that's often used in place-names etc):

Coworker: Hi (Page)!
Page: Hey
Coworker: You're a pool in Dunedin!
Page: ...*takes a moment to figure this out*... I'm also a street in Christchurch.
Coworker: *walks off*

I love working with strange people! Later in the day I was talking to the receptionist and basically the same thing happened.

Coworker: *walks by* Hey (Receptionist)! (Page) is a pool in Dunedin.
Page: *without acknowledging coworker* I'm also a street.
Receptionist: What?
Coworker: *walks off*

I get the feeling he likes to make dramatic exits.
Current Mood: annoyed
13 June 2012 @ 12:53 pm
And then there was everything  
So then I moved city and started a new job.

Christchurch kind of sucks these days, so I picked up and moved to Wellington, our fair capital (also for Reasons). I've never lived here before, but visited a few times. It's all-told a pretty sweet city to live in. More hipsters and hippies here, so I'm more amongst my own kind (although [ profile] mimei would laugh at me to hear me describe myself as a hipster - which I'm NOT, for the record. ^_^).

My new job is as Corporate Admin to the Max! I'm working for a Government department. It's a bit of a culture shock to go from being the admin for the 15-strong staffed branch of a medium sized business, (literally working out of a HOUSE, because our office fell over in an earthquake) to working on the 10th floor of a huge office with a staff of over 100 just in our two floors. I feel a little like a gawky tourist from Hicksville staring at all the tall buildings.

But really, I can't stop staring at all the tall buildings! Christchurch has (had?) a bigger population than Wellington, but it certainly doesn't feel like big city the way that Wellington does. Chch had no restrictions on growth for a really long time, and being built on a flat plain meant that it just expanded outwards. Apparently also there was some weird law until like, the 80s or something that no buildings were allowed to be taller that some statue's hat. I dunno. Town-planners are weird. Especially when they're trying to recreate a English utopia.

Anyway, woot woot for new beginnings and such. Presumably the culture-shock will wear off at some point... ^_^;
Current Mood: weird
07 November 2010 @ 02:09 pm
Not-really here  
Okay, so I'm coming back to the internet in two days after my last assignment for the year goes in, but I was just compelled to post because I just hit my minimum-goal for [profile] mininanowrimo of 3,000 words (100 p/d) and we're only 6 days in! Woot! And that's WITH working on the world's most massive assignment. My very hopeful goal is actually 10,000 and I'm also on track for that.

Wrote 2,000 words of nummy Spike/Xander porn on Thursday. Whoops. XD

Current Mood: pleased
24 September 2010 @ 01:05 pm
Attention span o... BUNNIES!  
Muuust stay foooooocussed! *glares at screen*

Don't you just love it when you have an essay that's really due URGENT URGENT DO YOUR WORK NOW due, and all you can do is rotate through LJ, Facebook, three different emails, look back at the essay, write one word then repeat process? That is today, for me.

I have post S5 fic that I am trrrrryyyying to finish before Show (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!) tomorrow, but see essay for why it probably won't get done on time.

I am REALLY FUCKING EXCITED about Show tomorrow. Oh my GOSH. It'll be coming out in the early evening tomorrow (Saturday here) and can take between 1 and 5 hours to download, (if I compare to previous experiences) and I know I won't be able to do ANYTHING in the mean time. I could re-watch? I guess? *flails* I just hope I can finish watching before, you know, 2am. I have Kung Fu at 8AM on Sunday, which I think is AWFUL and CRUEL and UNUSUAL.

Also, GLEE! Yay! Rachel/Michelle is WAY TOO SKINNY, oh my GOSH girl, go eat a PIE!

Right, yes, essay. I'll get right on that.
Current Mood: distracted
22 September 2010 @ 02:33 pm
Proper post-earthquake survival report  
My brain is full of far too many things!

There was an earthquake. It was interesting... )

Anyway, very long story shorter, my cat came back eventually,


so did the power, everyone I know is okay, and this has been a VERY strange experience. Meanwhile I was going to rant about life being crazy at the moment, but I have already spend valuable essay-writing time on this entry (read: justifiable procrastination), so I best be off. Thanks for the people that commented on my 'I'm alive!' post. :) I shall continue to live, if in a slightly deranged form, as usual.

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Current Mood: alive
07 September 2010 @ 01:20 am
Hey all. Just in case anyone was concerned, I am alive and unharmed by earthquake. A lot of the city is pretty fucked, but most places have power and water back on. The university is closed for an extra week, (last week was holidays anyway) because the library is TOTALLED. Half a million books thrown out of their shelves.

We're experiencing a crap-load of aftershocks at the moment, so I'm not too happy right now, but all-in-all the whole thing has been extremely mild considering the size of the quake. I'm just so grateful to be in a country that has good infrastructure.

I'm still massively overloaded with assignments and it's really hard to concentrate on anything at the moment coz the house keeps shaking, and I might volunteer to help with cleanup in some harder-hit areas, so I probably won't be around much for the next few days, but I just wanted to let everyone know I remain alive! (And the cat is okay, too!)

I'm off to bed, because despite having nine aftershocks in the last couple of hours - including two over 5.0 - I need some damn SLEEP.

Peeji out (for now. Will update with all the drama later.)
Current Mood: discontent
30 August 2010 @ 12:16 pm
An update on nearly everything.  
Hi all. Long time no post, I know. Post-graduate work is not always fun!

So! Let me update you on my so-interesting life, yes?

1. I went to a party last night and FLIPPED OUT. Seriously, the closest I've been to a full-blown panic attack in ages. The Boyfriend was awesome and super-nice and took me home even though we'd only just got there, and he was really looking forward to the free food. I felt like such an awful party-pooper, but so glad when I got home to be able to snuggle up on the couch and remind myself I didn't have to go outside again until it was DAYTIME! YAY! I think the stress of Honours is feeding into the mild agoraphobia I'm pretty sure I have. :/ Going out at night has very suddenly got much much harder in the last few weeks. This does happen to me from time to time, but not as badly as it did last night. So. In some ways I don't really mind. I'd rather be socially crippled than physically, in terms of where the stress is going, because at least I can still work on thesis when I'm freaking out and hiding in my room rather than sick! I'm deciding not to worry about it, because I'm pretty sure it will get better once the pressure of this year is lower. *nods firmly*

2. Wrote the synopsis to an entire original fic last week. Woo. Full-on. It's very very weird, so if I ever got around to writing it it would only be for online. No publisher would go near it! *laughs* Still, it was fun to see that my creative-brain is still operating in there somewhere, even when it's been smothered by a million essays and what-not this month. Other writing projects are being prodded-at later this week, I hope, depending on my progress with MORE essays. ;_;

3. SPN! New season starting in what, three weeks now? I had a S5 coda half-written, so I might try push that into shape this week, otherwise it'll get eated! I'm SO nervous and also excited for this new season! Very mildly spoiled, and it doesn't SOUND like it's going to be shit, so we'll see.

4. I've been keeping a food-diary to hopefully sort out the digestive problems I've been having lately. Good GRIEF it's a frightening experience to see all your bad eating-choices permanently inscribed on paper in front of you. I bought VEGETABLES at the supermarket this week. LOTS of them. @_@ I also printed out the better pain-chart to put at the front so the doctor can refer to it. Hyperbole and a Half has recently changed my entire world.

5. I bought a new computer! Did I say that here? *checks* No! I didn't! I haven't updated in SO LONG! She's called Isabella (not a Twilight reference) and is very very pretty and very very nice to me, and has a remote, so I've been zombie-ing out to Naruto in the evenings and it's AWESOME because I don't even have to get up to load a new episode. BUT, now I have NO MONEY so I can't afford to buy Star Craft II, which is why I bought her in the first place, (there were other reasons, too, but that sounds more geekily dramatic,) which I think is HILARIOUS.

6. I've been invited to do my MA at Washington University! Which is so fucking cool! But also so incredibly never going to happen because it costs 50,000 USD a YEAR for me to study there. Hahahahahahhaha. But so awesome to be invited. Sigh.

7. RE #6 - I had this really odd conversation with the BF yesterday where we basically talked about how the hell we're going to stay together next year with me probably flying off to another country and him probably starting Masters here. :( I had kind of been ignoring the fact that I have a BF when planning the next stage of life, because a friend recommended it as a way of toning down my life-complications, and also because I kinda didn't think we would last this long. But we have and things are good only getting better, which is GREAT, but also really a :( moment when approaching next year. For now though, I'm going to keep ignoring the problem. *sticks fingers in ears* lalalala~!

I think that's enough of me talking. We all agree? Yes? Okay. Ta ta for now.
Current Mood: busy
19 May 2010 @ 11:27 am
Little engine that coud  
Good things:

I've just got to make it through today and assignment 6 and 7 of the seven due in the last five days will be done and I can maybe stop wandering around with this startled-hen look on my face.
(Of course, then I will have to catch up on 5 books and 4,000 words of writing I've been NOT doing due to said 7 assignments, but hey, SO NOT THE POINT!)

Glee club tonight. (Yes, I've joined a Glee Club, and no, it's not lame and full of weirdos, it's AWESOME and full of AWESOME AND SCARY-CRAZY PEOPLE.)

I've done at least half of a 5x22 coda. I think it doesn't suck, too.

I watched Star Trek last night AGAIN. (This is about the 7th time, I think.) And yes, it is STILL AWESOME.

I bought the game Jeanne d'Arc to go towards my research and it's SUPER FUN and really addictive. ^_^ Really good thing to have to do before bed because I can't read fic when I've been staring at words for about 12 hours solid.

Less good things:

My Sammessiah fic needs some work, it's a bit average. :/

From next week I have to start recruiting participants for my research. Which means I need to power through these damn video games and I DO NOT HAVE TIME. >:[

I need to get my shit together and start making some serious plans about where I'm going once I've finished honors. This is scary because I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO and I have no idea who to ASK because none of the lecturers here know anything about Japan, and the only Japanese lecturer who WOULD have been helpful has LEFT. Wah. :(

Um, to end on a positive note..... My kitty is adorable, YAY!
Current Mood: busy
02 March 2010 @ 11:16 pm
Save me from my ambitions  
Hi all. Long time no post. I think no one is surprised by now, so lets just skip the gnashing of teeth and move on.

In news of Life of Peeji, I'm in my last week of Working Too Much at my workplace, and just starting my second week of Working Too Much at uni.

I spent 6 HOURS today researching video game titles for use in my honours thesis.


I'm going to hate myself by the end of this, seriously. Will NEVER be able to play video games again. (but right now, I'm just really excited and can't believe I'm allowed to do this as an academic pursuit.)

I'm thrilled, I gotta say, to finally be doing post-grad. I feel like a fraud, and that any moment someone will point and say, 'You don't belong here!' I'm just so grateful that I've made it this far and I hope I can do well.

Also, doing research on video games? EXPENSIVE. @_@

I'm going to have no life at all this year. It's going to be awesome. Two of the girls doing post-grad Anth are also massive geeks like me. They helped me search for titles this afternoon because they were bored. *beams*

I miss writing right now, but there just isn't any time. Maybe once I've got into a routine. Right now I'm trying to pack 40 hours of study into three days a week and there just is. no. time. Writing is never forgotten for me, though.

Anyway, I gotta get some sleep. Just wanted to say hi to the outside world.

P.S. Jared just got married and even though I'm so happy for him, and not even Jared obsessed, a little part of me was all sad yesterday. ^_^;;
Current Mood: tired
03 December 2009 @ 06:08 pm
Personal entry is personal  
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Current Mood: busy
03 November 2009 @ 06:08 pm
Wow, okay, life overload. I'm up in Blenheim at the moment, staying with Mum and Dad until Saturday. Finished class okay, I can pick up my final assignments when I get back which I'm pretty keen to do, and gotta sort out my enrolment for next year, which potentially is going to be extremely confusing because I have a mental year of half-undergrad half-honours including a whole-year paper that I have to start half-way through and BAH! Yeah, I have to go in to do it in person, because it's not going to work online.

Anyway! I'm doing [info] mini_nanowrimo, 200 words minimum a day. Got about 500 so far. Working on my Season 4 follow up first. It's at 10,000 words at the moment, I'm hoping to finish it pretty soon. I think it doesn't completely suck, so looking forward to that. After that I'm working on another Spn WiP, I think. But for some reason I don't feel like telling anyone about what's happening with that one, but I really really like it. (To the point where I'm finding it hard to continue it because what's there is so good I don't want to ruin it!)

Been working a million hours, (last week it was 46, including one 13 hour day. No thanks) but that's over now for 11 days. 11 whole days of FREEDOM. Hoping to do lots and lots of writing, catching up with people and reeessting.

What's going on with everyone else? I have been totally fail at the internet over the last month. So so so so so so sorry!
Current Mood: pleased
27 September 2009 @ 12:45 pm
what she said  
Uhhhhhg. I swear I woke up with a mini-hangover this morning. After ginger-beer, thai food and TEA last night. Fear the non-alcoholic beverages. Feeeeeear them.

Blaaaaah. Either that or I'm sick because this headache isn't my friend. I could pass on the slight fever, too.

Meanwhile, it's daylight savings today, the kind where you lose an hour, so getting up for work tomorrow is going to be a real party.

I really wanted to write more today but I doubt enthusiasm is going to overcome the brain-sludge any time soon.

[very very vague SPN S5 spoilers:

It occurred to me today, that despite SPN hurting our hearts so much at the moment, it does seem to be a very prolific time for the fandom, you know, if just for discussion of who the boys are and where their priorities are. I'm enjoying the fic that's being produced, and I hope there will be more.


ooooooooooow, my head. *drinks water hopefully*
Current Mood: lethargic
10 September 2009 @ 01:59 pm

No, really, I actually feel a little bit drugged or something. My eyes aren't even focusing right. This assignment isn't THAT hard! But I can't concentrate to save myself! I'm not even particularly sleep-deprived right now. :(

I'm gonna give up in a minute, go call my work and find out why the hell my pay cheque hasn't come in, go into uni and pick up the key to the ballroom for Kung Fu on Sunday and hopefully by then that will be enough of a break to get the old brain functioning again. Maybe I need food. I probably just need food, everyone.

SUPERNATURAL TOMORROW! I'm annoyed because I might not get to see it until like, 5am the next morning, but DAMN if I'm going to wait till I get back from my brother's party on Saturday before I watch it. @_@

I'm not going to have my fic finished on time, but I'll finish it asap anyway. li
Current Mood: lethargic
03 August 2009 @ 01:13 am
I'm not really here  
It's a lie, if you tell anyone you saw me, I'll come and shoot you. I swear, I am very scary and... you know, armed. (In my country where arms are illegal. Though not ARMS, because of course we have THOSE. GOSH!)

I just wanted to have a teeny flag-waving moment, because today I wrote 2,300 words of a brand new shiny fic which my dreams provided for me (Sam/Dean dreams for the win!) to comfort me because I'm jammed on all my other fic at the moment.

And then I wrote a poem that I think is really kick-ass. I'll post when it's edited.

Unfortunately, I did NOT do any work on my essay which is due next Friday. Woo, scary. I have major assignments every two weeks this semester. It's CRAZY.

Oh, and (part of the crazy that is keeping me well and truly submersed in life) I have a job interview on Tuesday. Hoping not to be at my current job for more than a few more weeks.

Love love.
25 June 2009 @ 02:50 pm
to continue your regularly scheduled program...  
Do you guys know what I’m doing today? NOTHING! Yeah, that’s right! NOT A THING! I am puttering around the house in my PJs, I’m stealing my flatmate’s food so I don’t have to leave the house, I’m being sleepy, reading books and in general not using this day for anything productive. Why? Because I NEVER GET TO DO THIS! Well, not in the six weeks or so. And I only have today for it before work starts and begin my epic holidays-are-the-only-time-for-writing-these-days mission of DOOM.

I feel like it’s been about three months since I’ve updated. It hasn’t been all that long but so much has been going on. Since last entry, I have finished all essays, exams and etceteras. I am slowly gaining back my sanity, I’ve read about two thousand big bangs, and have even done a pile of writing.

I got an A- back on one of my big essays, which makes me hopeful I might end up with an A- for the paper. (If I can do THAT, then I reckon I can get my overall grade up to A’s by the end of next semester. If I can do THAT then I should be able to get funding up the wazzoo for masters. Unless there’s like, ten thousand applicants in my year. And if THAT happens I’ll just go around and bash them all until they quit. Easy.) I also got an A back yesterday on my anime script. Which was SUCH a personal victory because that lecturer marks REALLY hard. And I also agreed with all his con-crit so I really appreciate that I’ll be able to incorporate that criticism when I go back to edit it in a few months.

I just had [info - personal]mimei to visit for a week! It was really really awesome. We did lots of stuff, we sat and read things, she tried not to get addicted to Fall Out Boy fandom (and failed) I lol’d in her general direction. My cat was a giant snob and refused to acknowledge her for the entire trip. I shared with her how much fun it is to have a friend doing sculpture Fine Arts (performance art assistants FTW!) She forced me at knife-point to sign up to twitter (page_r was already taken! Arg!) and there was epic media-swaps.

This entry is getting really long so I’ll finish by saying the next chapter of DMTs WILL be going up these holidays. Even if I have to post something I think is complete shite. I also have the fist sequel to Pack Your Bags semi-finished. And about three other fics I might get done.

And finally:

-There is a limit to how many question marks are required. In any situation, know that there is a limit. EVEN IN LOL-CATS there is a limit. I know it sounds impossible, but seriously guys.
Current Mood: exhausted