21 January 2010 @ 09:45 pm
Rage rage against the dying of the light  
I don't know if anyone else gets this, but if I go for long enough without writing anything it's like I go INSANE. No, seriously, I can't concentrate, I have fits of BLINDING RAGE and yell at people and kick things lots and generally feel like I'm losing my mind.

I was trying to figure out why I was so pissed off the last couple of days and it clicked.

Anyway, despite the fact that I am completely STUCK with all FOUR potential things I'm writing at the moment, I have two hours tonight before I absolutely have to sleep and I absolutely HAVE to write something. Because I can't handle another day like this where I am a CRAZY PERSON.

So, any suggestions? Prompts? Requests?

EDIT 11:30pm: Can't keep my eyes open anymore so sleep now. 600 words, slightly less peeved and a random little Sam/Dean fuck-or-die started. (This fandom DOESN'T HAVE ENOUGH OF THESE. So I will write one. Yey.)
Current Mood: aggravated
15 January 2010 @ 03:28 pm
It lives?  
Kind of.

Hi all, sorry that I've disappeared completely over the last year couple of months. I'm home sick from work today which is the only real reason I have time for this entry today, but because I'm sick I'm pretty tired, so I'll try keep it short.

Where I've been:

-Mostly work. Been working 40-60 hour weeks, which isn't the end of the world for some people, I guess, but I'm not used to it at all, so I just have NO ENERGY at the end of the day. None. Whatsoever. I haven't even been reading, I just come home and refresh facebook a few times then sleep. Also I have two hour-long commutes on top of 9-hour shifts so there isn't really any time, quite apart from the tiredness.

-Family. My parents announced mid-December that they (dad) had decided they should definitely split up. So. Um. Yeah. Things have been pretty stressful and busy on that front. My mum has moved down here for the time being, staying with her sister, but since they've been married for 36 years, and she's never been independent, there's kind of a massive learning curve for her. So any time I'm not at work I'm usually helping her out with things like opening her own bank account and all this... CRAP that... anyway, I'm not going to get into the emotional side of it, it's just a huge time and energy suck right now.

-Other people. On the maybe two nights a week I'm not at work or with Mum or sleeping I try to schedule in my poor boyfriend (he's earned the word now, mostly... on the days it doesn't freak me out,) or one of those weird people that think I have time to be their friend. Silly, silly people.

That's about it. I'm really tired. I have another month before uni starts and oh MAN I'm looking forward to it. And to think I thought I would have MORE time in the holidays. After mininano I haven't done really any writing these holidays.


I have been working on Dry My Tears over the last few weeks. (!!!)

I gotta go lie down, but I just want to say sorry to the world for turning into a ghost lately, can't guarantee non-ghostlikeness for the rest of the month, but I'm trying my best. :)

As always, love love!
Current Music: Barry Manilow - Mandy (this reminds me of Angel every single time)