12 July 2010 @ 11:45 pm
If all you see is a crater, just back away slowly  
Hey all. Today was the first night in about 2 weeks? 3? I've had home alone by myself and nothing super-pressure to do. Seriously, that's actually not an exaggeration. I'm not all woe-is-me about it because there has been many good things, but also those weeks have contained visiting my family (which SUCKED, for the record. It was great seeing my brother but then I spent four days in the same house as my separated parents and an 8 week old puppy, which meant that I was stressed out and tired (puppy) and put through an emotional roller-coaster (parents) but was still a welcome reprieve from my infuriating flatmates) followed by interviews for my thesis, followed by a two-day photo-shoot for a Suicide Girls hopeful, followed by my BFF breaking up with her bf of six years and needing a place to stay. AT THE SAME TIME as one of my other besties going on the rocks with HER bf, which resulted in DANGER DANGER EXTREME SUPPORT REQUIRED for both of them, which wasn't a problem but was pretty worrying and meant I was either out lots or had ppl here. AS WELL as that I'm behind-schedule on my thesis. AS WELL as that my BF and I haven't had a lot of time together lately due to all of the above so I was trying to juggle spending time with him as well as my girls, which kinda made me feel guilty coz I was so happy to be spending time with him I possibly wasn't being the most focussed support!friend I could have been.

ANYWAY. All this means is that I haven't had any time for anything really, but on the very few days I've been able to sit down with my computer and a bit of time, I've been doing my best to keep to writing targets. I wanted to make a post for all interested parties, (and I just checked the read-count on Pomme de Sang so I know that there are at least a few of you *cough*) that this month I am actively working on Dry My Tears and have been making genuine progress. I have a secret goal for when I'm going to get the next chapter up and while I'm not telling in case anyone gets disappointed, let's hope I can hit it!

Meanwhile, new addiction: Bleach. Though the gender issues annoy me quite a lot. Still. Fun and the episodes are short enough that I can use them as a mini-break in between studying.

Ooh, and my Foo has given me the details of a Professor in the USA who studies some of the same field as me who might be able to give me advice about the next educational step, so that's exciting!

Oh, and I just got my marks back for last sem. All I'll say is that I am very happy.

Enough for now.

Peeji over and out!
Current Mood: sleepy
15 January 2010 @ 03:28 pm
It lives?  
Kind of.

Hi all, sorry that I've disappeared completely over the last year couple of months. I'm home sick from work today which is the only real reason I have time for this entry today, but because I'm sick I'm pretty tired, so I'll try keep it short.

Where I've been:

-Mostly work. Been working 40-60 hour weeks, which isn't the end of the world for some people, I guess, but I'm not used to it at all, so I just have NO ENERGY at the end of the day. None. Whatsoever. I haven't even been reading, I just come home and refresh facebook a few times then sleep. Also I have two hour-long commutes on top of 9-hour shifts so there isn't really any time, quite apart from the tiredness.

-Family. My parents announced mid-December that they (dad) had decided they should definitely split up. So. Um. Yeah. Things have been pretty stressful and busy on that front. My mum has moved down here for the time being, staying with her sister, but since they've been married for 36 years, and she's never been independent, there's kind of a massive learning curve for her. So any time I'm not at work I'm usually helping her out with things like opening her own bank account and all this... CRAP that... anyway, I'm not going to get into the emotional side of it, it's just a huge time and energy suck right now.

-Other people. On the maybe two nights a week I'm not at work or with Mum or sleeping I try to schedule in my poor boyfriend (he's earned the word now, mostly... on the days it doesn't freak me out,) or one of those weird people that think I have time to be their friend. Silly, silly people.

That's about it. I'm really tired. I have another month before uni starts and oh MAN I'm looking forward to it. And to think I thought I would have MORE time in the holidays. After mininano I haven't done really any writing these holidays.


I have been working on Dry My Tears over the last few weeks. (!!!)

I gotta go lie down, but I just want to say sorry to the world for turning into a ghost lately, can't guarantee non-ghostlikeness for the rest of the month, but I'm trying my best. :)

As always, love love!
Current Music: Barry Manilow - Mandy (this reminds me of Angel every single time)
03 November 2009 @ 06:08 pm
Wow, okay, life overload. I'm up in Blenheim at the moment, staying with Mum and Dad until Saturday. Finished class okay, I can pick up my final assignments when I get back which I'm pretty keen to do, and gotta sort out my enrolment for next year, which potentially is going to be extremely confusing because I have a mental year of half-undergrad half-honours including a whole-year paper that I have to start half-way through and BAH! Yeah, I have to go in to do it in person, because it's not going to work online.

Anyway! I'm doing [info] mini_nanowrimo, 200 words minimum a day. Got about 500 so far. Working on my Season 4 follow up first. It's at 10,000 words at the moment, I'm hoping to finish it pretty soon. I think it doesn't completely suck, so looking forward to that. After that I'm working on another Spn WiP, I think. But for some reason I don't feel like telling anyone about what's happening with that one, but I really really like it. (To the point where I'm finding it hard to continue it because what's there is so good I don't want to ruin it!)

Been working a million hours, (last week it was 46, including one 13 hour day. No thanks) but that's over now for 11 days. 11 whole days of FREEDOM. Hoping to do lots and lots of writing, catching up with people and reeessting.

What's going on with everyone else? I have been totally fail at the internet over the last month. So so so so so so sorry!
Current Mood: pleased
11 June 2009 @ 02:57 pm
The crazies are chewing my brain  
I just wrote the grammatically wackiest sentence of my life!

The ‘why’ of why people say ‘blood is thicker than water’ is to denote several things: endurance – blood will last forever; stability – blood can’t be broken; and loyalty – blood is socially meaningful.

Ignore the words, it's for an essay on kinship, just look at all that crazy punctuation! I have no idea if that actually is allowable by the magical punctuation rules but I DON'T CARE, it's CRAZY AND SHINY.

Also, there is kind of insane amounts of good fic flying around at the moment, and I'm reading NONE of it and I feel frustrated and proud at the same time.

Oh my gosh I just realised I've forgotten to do my washing for three days! Underwear emergency!

Rumble rumble rumble. My stomach has been all, viva la revolution for about a month now. I'm almost getting used to this constant, low-grade rumble in my guts, just, all the time. I need to finish some of the food in my fridge and then I'm trying a gluten-free diet. It's just pissing me off, now. My Mum thinks it's stress. (my Mum doesn't believe in actual illness, I think I broke my ankle once and she just told me to stop complaining and get myself some ice if it was bothering me. 9 months later I finally stopped limping and won't ever trust her assessments of health again) I told her I'm ALWAYS this stressed, why would my stomach purchase a fleet of cannons now? [ profile] petite_ari suggested it might be an alien pregnancy. Everyone is being REAL HELPFUL, THANKS.

Spent an hour talking to my Mum about parent's marriage. Future is grim at this point.

Current Mood: anxious
10 April 2009 @ 10:08 pm
A theory, and some rambling.  
I have a few things to say!

A theory about the Mystery of Sam Winchester and Azazel’s Mysterious Epic Plan.

I was thinking about demons, and angels, and how they need hosts. (Have you got it yet?) And how everyone’s trying to bring on the apocalypse. And set Lucifer free. And I know Lilith is always trying to kill Sam, but it seems interesting that she never quite manages it. Anyway, I suddenly wondered this week if this Whole Thing is that Sam is being made into a perfect host for Lucifer. Because surely Lucifer is so big and badass that he couldn’t inhabit just anyone.


What do you think? I’m not sure about it. I hope it’s not true, because I don’t like the idea of Sam after all this being no more important than being a shell, but it does seem to fit really well. Just an idea. (If someone wants to write it.... go ahead? Especially if Sam gets captured beforehand, and force-fed blood for a while, and goes a little crazy and Dean has to save him. Mmmm. Yes? Someone? EDIT: Or, even better, if Dean gets captured WITH Sam and gets left in a room/cell with Sam as Sam goes progressively more darkside. Mmmmmmmmm. Yes.)

Week one of the holidays is almost over. GAH. I haven’t had time for ANYTHING yet. I’m only just starting to get back into writing another part of Pack Your Bags and it’s FRIDAY. I really want the boys to have sex some time ever, but they’re demanding more plot, the bastards.

Good Friday! Or, as I like to think of it: Really Morbid Friday. Having sins forgiven rox. Cheers, dude.

Supernatural fandom is awesome! I feel a little further dragged out of my anonymous corner lately, but it’s worth it to be able to share fic with people who are really enjoying it.

I’m leaving for my Blenheim-Wellington trip on Tuesday. Looking forward to it, oh yes! Mum’s home-cooking! Brothers to hug! City to explore! funfun!

Okay! I’m done for now. Love love!
Current Mood: restless
01 April 2009 @ 02:26 am
Of life:  
DOT.Finished term one! Three weeks of holiday now! Well, holiday from class. I am working lots this week so I don't actually get a day off till saturday BUT, no more assignments due.

DOT.Working on another part of Pack Your Bags. Wrote 1,500 words tonight but now I need sleeep.

DOT.I'm visiting my parents, and then my brother in two weeks. YEY! Tripp! To Blenheim and then Wellington! Been about two years since I was in Wellington so I'm looking forward to that!

DOT.I hate my 2IC so much that if I explode into firey balls of doom this thursday/friday, you'll know why, I'm working with him for two whole 9-6 days. My manager has given me special dispensation to call other managers and vent if he pisses me off too much. -__-;;

Okay, enough chatter, I've got lots to write/do tomorrow so much get sleep! Before 3am preferably!

Peeji out.
Current Mood: accumulative...
05 January 2009 @ 12:08 am
What? A new year? Life keeps moving? Lies!  
Hi all!

This is just a quick update because it's late and I have class in the morning, but I feel nothing has happened on this journal for long enough that people might be wondering if I was eaten by a taniwha, (if you don't know that that is, Wiki it, they are cool).

What's going on?
- I had a great christmas (well, post-christmas, I didn't leave till boxing day) with my family, mostly just sleeping lots and getting to know my brother's new girlfriend, and swimming, which was nice.

- I also had a great birthday, New Years Eve going on Random Adventures with some friends and then fireworks in the town-square at midnight which were FAB and then hugs and stuff. The actual day was marred by some less-cool stuff with my brother but then my flatmates were really nice and made me a cake so it was okay.

- Today I did some more work on Dry My Tears. ...I KNOW! INSANITY! Over the break at my parents' I started on a J2 short fic as well, but I'm not going to say how/if these will eventuate out because (next point)

- I am about to start my next summer paper - Creative Writing for Stage (today! In 9 hours! Must sleep first!). Which... well, I'm extremely excited/nervous about. I also have my manager going away on holiday in Feb, which is going to make the next two months IN-FUCKING-SANE. Then I have a (WHOLE, OMG!) week of break before semester proper starts again. This coming year is really important to me and is going to be real test of whether I can stick it out in academia, so I am making NO promises about fanfic. It's still a huge priority but it's just extremely hard for me to get my head into writing-mode when I'm obsessing about essays or whatever. On the plus side though, half my papers this year are ON creative writing, which maybe will stir me up more than the last few years. We'll see.

- Finally, 2008 was a real humdinger of a year. Full of massive ups and massive downs. Fail grades and A+es, depression and epiphanies. Friends, family, love and hurt. I don't think I could have squeezed more into the year if I'd tried. A big thank you to everyone who was good to me, a big >:[ to those who were shit to me, and also a big thank you to all the interesting people around at the moment who keep me clicking the refresh button on life, not just the internet.

Note for 2009: Climb more trees.
Current Mood: jumbled up
16 July 2008 @ 12:58 am
At this point, the novelty has totally worn off...  
Edited to add: AHAHAHA! THE NOVELTY. Ahahahahaaaa that was totally unintentional! (Yes, yes, I am one of those people who cracks up over stupid puns. Please blame my parents.)

But, I'm still keeping up okay! By week end I needed 4,522 minimum:

Day Six – July 14th, 2008 [Words: 0 today / 3,672 total] )

Day Seven – July 15th, 2008 [Words: 1,230 today / 4,905 total] )

Also caught up with my brothers today, which was nice, and the presents I got for my parents FINALLY got to them and Mum called to squee about going to the ballet with me. And she loved the card. Dad said, 'thanks for the bit of wood with a hole in it' which was okay, since that's what I gave him. (it was a stupid gift. A wine-bottle balancing holder thing. :/) So I'm feeling all family-ified and that is nice.

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4,905 / 20,000
Current Mood: pleased