13 March 2012 @ 09:36 pm
Adventures in the life of an Attempted Everything  
Hi all, been a while since I’ve mustered up the brain to talk about anything. I actually have three different tabs open with drafts of journal entries, so let’s hope this one actually gets published, right?

Life stuff:

I survived my road trip. (Pic below.) And survived spending a week with my Dad. (I think the driving was the easier of the two.) Road trip... )

My Grandma died this week. I’m okay with it, she’d had dementia for 13 years so we all were glad her suffering ended. It’s still a downer though. Nuff said about that. :-/

Writing stuff:

I imagine many of you have struck this before, but I’m really struggling with feeling at the moment that I’m so close to the point where after just a little more writing, contacting an agent and a producer for my TV show is really really close, and in a nutshell, I’m totally freaked out. I’ve always been a pretty driven person, so I’ve never really questioned that one day I would get published, (simply because if so much crap gets published, semi-decent should be okay, right?) but now that it comes to it (especially with the TV show, because it’s so out of my comfort-zone) I am seized by this panic of ‘what if it doesn’t work?’ What if I try and fail? What if all this work is for nothing? What if no one likes it? What if they laugh in my face?

It’s a strange experience for me because there are actually logical answers to each of those questions, but every time I answer them the question just rolls around and comes back as if the answer never happened. Is this what it’s like to be an irrational person? (j/k ^_^) Somehow I have to get around this freezing panic and finish my work. I don’t really know how.

Unrelatedly, (mostly,) said TV show recently pointed out to me (in the nature of non-sentient beings) that it would be much cheaper to produce, thus more likely to get picked up, if instead of being written in a futuristic post-apocalypse utopia, it was sans the utopia and just post-apocalyptic semi-third-world-but-with-cool-future-gadgets. While this was a good point, it has meant that I’m in the process of re-writing the whole blasted thing. Wah, brain, why be helpful, huh?

I’m taking part in [ profile] thewritinggame to get myself sticking to my writing goals. Looking forward to joining in, I’ve missed the start due to busy busy.

That’s all from me!
Current Mood: sleepy